Before we get into what Abba is teaching me, let me tell you how sweet PVT was, Mom and Pop arrived matching with the absolute sweetest smiles I had seen in a while. The Lord moved that week and I truly believe they left South Africa different people. I am so proud of the way they loved, every time I turned around they were handing out bibles and being so intentional with everyone they came in contact with. Thanks for coming to do life in SA with me!! I am so glad I got to share that week with you, it will forever be one of my favorites.
I had a vision: My Dad is standing with his arms wide open as I run to him. He twirls me around just happy to be together again. We walk somewhere eager to catch up on the past 6 months.
This is one of the sweetest/saddest vision I’ve had lately. I was so excited to see my Dad and tell him things I haven’t been able to say over the phone or discuss what the plan is for next year. All things that are expected after not seeing your Dad for a while. After I had this vision the Father began to speak to me, and man was I convicted. I have always had trouble with trusting the Lords plans and even talking to Him about whats going on with life. I’ve learned that my relationship with the Father is two ways and He wants to hear from us how were doing. He is literally just like our earthly parents ya know how they already know everything, but they just want to hear it from you (the good and the bad). Here’s the problem we run to flesh to talk about our days, when there is an eternal man who is sitting right next to you wherever you go all the time who knows you better than flesh. He is divine and is more alive than the flesh sitting upright next to you. Eventually these earthly people go away or even sometimes fail us. Don’t get me wrong when Mom and Dad got off the bus the first thing I did was sit them down and tell them all that God had been and is still doing in my life. I told them about the hard times and the sweet ones too. When I had the vision I began to bicker back and forth with Papa, I told Him they are MY parents and I like telling them things and how they always seem to know what to say, then He said something like, “Yeah, they are YOUR parents who you haven’t seen in six months, that I gave to you, and yes I want to you to fellowship with them and let them in, but I have been right here the whole time and we hardly talked about any of the things you just told them, and I was the one who did it.”
I tell you what I put my head down and asked for forgiveness right there. My team is currently working with a Christian book shop here in Thailand so we have lots to read, right now I am reading a book called, ”Hearts of Fire” Its about eight women in the underground church and their stories of costly faith. These women have no fear, no doubts and some no family. They literally run from their family into Abbas arms. One of the girls was rob and after chose to sit on the side of road in India and worship our almighty God, she didn’t run home or curse God. SHE PRAISED HIM.
This is what I want people to trust God so freely that I don’t think twice about praising Him in the storm. I don’t even want to think about running to literal bags of bones for pity. God is always good and He wants you to go to Him even when its hard, even if your mad. He doesn’t care he is right there ready for the blow, ready to hold you and give you peace. Like Abba told me He has given us community, it is a good thing. The problem arises when we go to earthy community before we go to Papa.
Y’all, already know I love Thailand. On the way here I felt like I was heading for home, and getting here and starting life here for the next two months kinda feels like I am home. I adore my ministry and love my sisters that I get the honor of doing life with. Can you believe I only have three months left on the field? Time has flown, and boy do I feel like I’ve grown. We have wifi at the base, so feel free to reach out and let me know how life is going in the states and how God is moving in your life.
Hope to hear from you guys soon!!
love,
T a.k.a Tierney!
