When I first started writing this post, My sweet Bunkie (aka Grandad) was sitting next to me playing video poker, we were listening to my morning Jesus Jams and the birds were awake early at 6:20 that morning. I had spent time in the word that morning reading lit bits here and there from Psalms, mostly 139.
I am a firm believer in repetition, now if you ask Mom and Dad they’ll say, “she’s never practiced or repeated anything in her life.” That in fact is true when it comes to karate or spelling test. However when it comes to our Father, and spending time with him I love songs that say the same things over and over again. My dad always says, “If you tell yourself something enough it will come true”. I truly believe him when he says that because I have watched myself repeat some pretty negative things to myself and soon I start to believe it and it even seems like the people around me start to as well. Now that I see what Dad is talking about with repetition, I am trying to replace the lies with truth. As of lately I have been repeating a specific chapter of Psalms to myself for about a month now, and God never fails to show me something new.
Psalms 139. “Search Me, O God, And Know My Thought”
I first want to encourage you to go and read this passage. I’ll sum up bits of it and explain its importance to me, but I’m praying as I write this that you will go and spend sometime reflecting on its truth.
The first five verses talk about how The Lord knows everything about each of us. “you search out my path and my lying down you are aquatinted with all my ways.” Psalms 139:3 I know what some of you are saying, “Tierney of course he knows me, He is God.” Its a good reminder. As the chapter continues it talks about God’s knowledge and how it is too great for any of us to know or understand. Being the control freak person I am, I like to think that I know all and nothing can come at me that I don’t already have planned.. I know, I know this is in no way true and I am a complete mess sometimes trying to make it seem like I’m not. Verse 7 starts with rhetorical questions, asking “Where can I go from your spirit?” In the next couple of verses they continue to repeat in different ways there is no where we can go where God will not know us. The past year was busy one with graduation and just senior year in general. In that time I struggled to find time to sit down and have a consistent quiet time. I thought I wouldn’t be able to jump right back in with God because there would be a void. I think this is why The Lord brought this scripture to me in this time, I know no matter how far I go I will never be so gone he doesn’t remember my name, know my heart or love me unconditionally.
Again I encourage you to go read the rest of the scripture. I now want to update y’all on funding. I have reached and passed my first goal of $5,000. I recently found out The Lindsey Lee Foundation has decided to donate $1,000 to me. All in all I am so I blessed y’all. I want to say thank you to God for allowing me to this opportunity, and Y’all for the support and prayers. I hope to update you again very soon. God is good.
Your friend, T.
