psalm 30

I will exalt you, Lord,

for you lifted me out of the depths

and did not let my enemies gloat

over me. 

Lord my God, I called to you for help,

and you healed me. 

You, Lord, brought me up from the 

realm of the dead;

you spared me from going down

to the pit. 

Sing the praises of the Lord, you

his faithful people;

praise his holy name. 

For his anger only lasts a moment, 

but his favor lasts a lifetime;

weeping may stay for the night,

but joy comes in the

morning. 

When I felt secure, I said

“I will never be shaken.”

Lord, when you favored me,

you made my royal mountain stand firm;

but when you hid your face,

I was dismayed. 

To you, Lord, I called;

to the Lord I cried for mercy:

“What is gained if I am silenced,

if I go down to the pit?

Will the dust praise you?

Will it proclaim you

faithfulness?

Hear, Lord, and be merciful to me; 

Lord, be my help.”

You turned my wailing into dancing;

you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, 

that my heart may sing your praises

and not be silent. 

Lord, my God, I will praise you

forever. 

 

i’ve been doing a psalm-a-day and when i read this on november 30th, it hit me. i don’t DESERVE the love that he gives me so graciously and so freely, but he loves me anyways. this led me to rewrite psalm 30 in my own words:

 

I will lift you high

because you have lifted me

out of the pits and didn’t let my 

enemies get to me. 

I called on you and

you came to my rescue. 

You brought me out of death and 

into life. 

I will sing your praise. 

You are only angry for a second,

but your favor is forever. 

I may cry the night away, but i will

leap with joy in the morning. 

I will shout,

“I will not be shaken!”

I called on you, Lord,

you answered. 

Why would I stop calling?

There’s no gain in silence.

What else, 

WHO else,

would praise you?

The dust?

You turned, TURN, 

sadness into joy,

I refuse to be silent,

I will not stand still,

forevermore. 

 

my question is, why would i stop calling on the Lord for help, grace, forgiveness, advice, decision, next steps? why would i stop when, though UNDESERVING, He is always there to help, pour grace over me, forgive, give advice, show me the right way? how could i stop praising Him when He raises me out of the pits of sin, dries my tears, mends my heart? i don’t deserve to have a Father who is only angry for a moment, a split second. of all the things i’ve done, said, seen, read, heard, how could He still love me? i should have the cold shoulder forever, but NO! He says that there’s more for me, that i’m forgiven, that i’m worth fighting for… worth loving. i DESERVE love. He even blessed me with two amazing parents who support me 100% in everything, give and give and give even when i don’t DESERVE it, they love me unconditionally and forgive me when i wrong them, help guide me on the right path, and pour Jesus into me everyday. i kept saying that i don’t DESERVE love like that, but the Lord says, “but syd, you DO DESERVE it! i bore that, let me have it! let. me. love. you.” even through everything, He loves us anyway. whataGod.