I’ve been home from the World Race for almost two months now. I have sat down to write this blog at least ten times and I still have a hard time putting it all into words (I know that’s crazy considering i’m a verbal processor and I never shut up). But I can say it has been a season of newness, reflection, re-established routine and processing. When nothing around you reminds you of the race and no one around you went on the race it is easy to fall into the mindset of “did that even happen?” It is so easy to ignore all the growth and fall back into old habits and routines because you’re back in the same, comfortable, normalcy of your home town.
But the biggest gift God has awoken me to is the gift of transformation. When God changes, softens or breaks your heart for what breaks His, it is permanent. Your self-awareness or lack there of does not change because of where you are geographically. Once you learn what self-awareness looks like you implement it into the way you live every single day, not just when you live overseas. The work that God did in my heart was transformational and I don’t need my team with me or to be back in Cambodia to rest in that truth.
It has not been the easiest few weeks. I have not had a breakdown in a grocery store yet and I don’t think I will, but I sometimes panic thinking about never being back to certain places with my people. I’ll be doing something so mundane and thats when the emotions of it all hit me. It’s crazy how the littlest moments stick out to us the most sometimes.
Through this transition God has confirmed again and again that this is where I am supposed to be. I am walking into this next season with a fresh perspective on the world and the people in it, an awakened spirit and a fresh anointing. I am expectant on God to continue transforming my heart even in the normalcy of Missouri, college and serving jobs.
The World Race did not change me, God did. I am thankful for that because the Race is just one season of my life but God will be with me for every season for ever and ever and ever and ever.
I want say one final thank you, thank you, THANK YOU to my supporters. I can not find words that express how truly grateful I am for each of you. I doubted being able to raise thousands of dollars, my family did too, but because of ya’ll it was possible. Gods will, Gods bill baby! Thank you for being obedient, generous and so so supportive. Thank you for reading my blogs, emailing/texting me words of encouragement and praying for me and my squad. I pray that God blesses you abundantly and that He fills your cup with overflow!
