Lately I’ve been feeling like I’ve been missing a lot during my race. I feel like I’m not serving enough, laughing enough, not taking enough fun videos and pictures or having big adventures, making a big enough difference and just genuinely like I’m missing something. But that’s the problem with comparison. I’ve looked at pictures and videos of past and present racers and compare it to what I’m experiencing and what my race looks like through my pictures.
The enemy likes to make us feel like we aren’t enough. The enemy loves to speak lies into your life and get you to believe them. When I heard about spiritual warfare this month I thought of people who didn’t believe in Jesus getting mad and cursing us (allowing demons to attack us) or that we would experience witch craft in the places we went to. I honestly had no idea because I grew up in a southern baptist, very traditional church, that never really talked about it. Being on the other end of this month I now realize that spiritual warfare looks more normal than youd think. It looks like exhaustion right before preaching despite not being tired before, it looks like anger, irritation, and annoyance with anything and everything around you, it looks like sickness, and disunity, it looks like a lot of normal things. Discernment is a huge part of your spiritual walk with the Lord, and in this case helping you to realize what is from the enemy to destroy your witness, ministry, and character.
But God gives us life and that life is beautiful, full, and healthy. When I started feeling like the past two months have flown by (which they have) and I’ve just been floating along (which isn’t necessarily true), the Lord has reminded me of so many good things I’ve been a part of. One of the things the Lord reminded me of was one of my favorite parts of this month: a surprise kids ministry day.
My team loaded up in our Tuk Tuk to go to minister to another village. We got there and there was nothing but two men and two buffalo and a puppy. One man was a pastor and the other was the man who’s place we were near. After a good 30 minutes or so we were told to walk down the street. We ended up at another house and sat down waiting to start Our routine: worship, intro, testimony, sermon. A big group of kids coming from school came to sit down on the ground. The large tarp filled with kids and a few adults, the back of the tarp had kids standing around and there were kids on the rooftop on the building next to us. We scrambled to quickly replan ministry to be more kid centered As the Lord told us that our former plan was no longer the plan.
This day, we got to tell almost 100 Or so kids about Jesus – most of who have never heard!!! HOW COOL IS THAT!!?!?? I was excited to do a kids program but the moment I heard that none of them had been to this church group before and most don’t know who Jesus is I was AMPED. I remember talking to Jesus and being like “okay, we have no idea what we are doing but let’s go, lets do this.” so my team and I shared about Jesus and His life changing love for us. We ended up doing a salvation prayer with them and I could literally feel God and He was doing. TALK ABOUT GOOSE BUMPS!! I know these kids will still struggle and have hardships and may not come to church or to know the Lord until later in their life but I KNOW God is with them and is working in them. I could just feel it. Ugh so good!
There are so many things we have been a part of in the last 6 months that have been absolutely incredible. I don’t always post them, in fact I rarely do, but just because my instagram isn’t exactly like the other world racers doesn’t mean I’m not making an impact or having the best year of my life. And I will be damned before I let satan spoil this season of my life by saying otherwise.
Anyways, just some thoughts and an update on my life. I love you all!
