Hey mom, if you’re reading this I already know you’re laughing at the title and I love you.
To everyone else who has ever met me, you already know I do not like waiting for anything. Ever. Imagine my impatience with 52 other people in one house. I’m struggling a bit friends. Every time I have to wait for a teammate to get out of the house, every time someone fills up their water bottle while I’m doing the dishes, every time we eat together as a squad my patience is being tested. The Lord is showing me my weak spots each day with these minor challenges that I have to face, but more than the minor challenges He is equipping me with patience for the big things.
He is giving me the tools to have patience in waiting for information. I throughly enjoy having information on situations and knowing exactly what my schedule is each day. However, this isn’t possible on the World Race and I am striving to gain patience while my flesh is screaming for immediate gratification. This looks like sitting in my bed giving my anxieties to the Lord when I have no idea what ministry will be like. Each day I have to make the decision to let the Lord grow me in patience, no matter how small the situation is. Praise Him for not giving up on me because 100 percent of humans would give up on my impatient attitude. What I’ve come to realize in the last month is growing isn’t always hearing God’s voice, reading the Bible 24/7, or fasting. Sometimes growing is learning that the Lord’s timing is better than mine. Sometimes it is giving grace to the teammates who move a little slower. Sometimes it is realizing that in life God gives us the opportunity to slow down, take a deep breath and just simply live without having an agenda. I’m growing in the smallest ways right now, but in the end I know the Lord will reveal a huge change in me.
All the love,
McKenna Flood
