Each week every month we have to do what we call “Journey Markers.” It’s a video and then answering discussion/reflection questions. We then send them in to AIM leadership and also discuss as a team. It helps them know how to encourage us and allows them to follow along with what God is doing and where we are at in our journey on the race.
This week’s journey marker was on hearing and obeying the Lord. I wanted to focus on one question from this week:
Tell us a story from this month where you obeyed the word of the Lord and seen direct fruit from it.
The Lord really gave me some crazy revelation as I was reflecting on this question. I think for the longest time I felt like I couldn’t hear from the Lord. People around me I saw could get clear voices from the Lord but somehow it wasn’t for me. I would often times doubt if I was really hearing from the Him and then the end result would be I wouldn’t step out in obedience because of doubt. I’m at a place where I’m truly desiring to hear his voice and step out in obedience. With that I’m recognizing that the Lord speaks to everyone differently and uniquely. At the end of the day I just want to be so in tune with His voice and how he personally speaks to me individually and just walk in freedom in that.
Okay, I’m really excited to share this. So at a care point last week with the kids there was this sweet precious girl I would pack up and take with me if I could. She literally let me sit and hold her for what seemed like hours. There were many other kids there obviously but this particular day I just felt God telling me to invest in her solely and spend time with her; leaving the 99 and seeking out the 1. Often times I have asked myself if I’m doing enough and could I be doing more? Measuring myself to others and God has been completely working on this. This day he was speaking to me. I knew it was about the quality of time and not the quantity of kids and I had to be okay with that and for me it had to be enough, God was asking for it to be enough. It had to of been my favorite day of ministry here so far just spending a majority of the time with one. We couldn’t communicate but there was so much love between us. I just spent time holding her, praying over her and telling her I love her over and over again, believing somehow it would resonate in her heart. I don’t know what kind of home life she goes back to at the end of the day, but I do know that all the love I had to pour on her never felt enough or what she deserved. My cup was overflowing that day!!
This is Gcinile. Gosh she’s beautiful!
Matthew 18:12
”What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go in search of the one that went astray?”
Much love to you all!
