I once heard someone say, “You ARE very much on his radar.”
I thought about that for a minute to let it sink in.
It’s easy for us to think that we’ve somehow dropped off the radar. That whatever we did, whatever we said, whatever we thought, was grounds for God to say “Sorry, because you did x, y, and z we are finished, I’m done with you, you are officially off my radar,” and shut the door.
That is a far cry from the truth.
I was reminded of that again today. It was such a gentle reminder for me. And maybe somebody reading this today needs that reminder as well. In some small way, I needed to come back again to that in this season of my life as I find myself preparing for this race and all that it entails. When it gets overwhelming, when self-doubt creeps in… Am I going to be physically, emotionally, and spiritually ready for this? None of my doubts or concerns surprise him, they ping on his radar. But he’s already gone before me.
Or you could look at it like this…. When I first heard “You are on his radar,” I immediately came to my singleness in my mind. You have a single girl, such as myself, waiting for the one person out there in this world that was meant for her. The one person that God said, “This one, that is the one for Lauren.”
She sees person after person moving on to the next season of their life, marriage, and some even moving on to become mothers.
Yet, still she waits.
Would be easy to feel like I dropped off the radar. That the attempts of flinging my hands in the air saying, “God, look at me, look at me. I’m over here.” That those were just failed and unsuccessful attempts at best.
Off the radar, just gone. That somehow he sees everybody else but ME.
Oh, he sees me, that has never been more evident as it is to me right now. He sees YOU, too. Because I’m telling you, yes you, the person reading this…. that I pray every day that I carry my singleness well. That I use this season and every season I might find myself in for his glory. And I get to travel for a year and tell people about Jesus. There’s no way I could be doing this if I was married and had kids, and if my life looked any different then what it is today.
Every desire, every dream, it’s not hidden from him. He just sometimes has other plans, doesn’t mean it’s not coming but have to take other paths in order to get there… And the World Race is my path right now and I could not be any more humbled to be walking where I am today.
Whatever you’ve been crying out to God about, every prayer that you lifted up to him, it’s on his radar, oh very much so.
Its hard for me to fathom, yet so beautiful to think, that I don’t get lost in the sea of people in this world he calls his children. He doesn’t play favorites. He doesn’t see Susie over there, but look over at me and turn a blind eye.
His radar, it’s looking right at me.
And it’s looking at you too.
