POWER, this is the word I heard on the rooftop of our hostel here in Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam. I felt God telling me He has all the power and no matter what comes my way I will have the power because He is with me, ALWAYS. And since that moment I have had this feeling that the Lord has something BIG in store for me. However, I have no idea what it is. I could find out in the next week, or even the next year-who knows! All I know is that it gives me this unexplainable feeling of excitement.
Now, I write about this revelation while, again, on the rooftop of our hostel. The sun has set and in the distance I see lights flickering on and watch the countless motorbikes pass by below. Never before have I lived in a place so densely populated. I’m constantly in disbelief this is my life. Who am I that the Lord chose me to go around the world this year spreading the gospel. Though hard at times I’m so glad to be living this uncomfortable life.
Not gonna lie I have my moments when I just want to go back home. I want to get one of those much needed hugs from my mom when I don’t feel good. I want old comforts from home that used to help me on those difficult days. BUT I’m on the race and that’s just not possible. So my comfort is the Lord and the sweet moments He gives me at just the right time. Kinda like sitting on a roof getting to look out over a country on the other side of the world as the sun sets, just me and Him.
Even if this life of being uncomfortable makes me cry more than I want to- I’m grateful. The Lord chose to use me in Vietnam along with the 10 other countries this year and that shouldn’t be taken lightly. I don’t want to return to the U.S. in 8 months being the same person who stepped on the airplane in October. Embracing discomfort, pain, and the hard days that seem to never end will help me get there.
I’m thankful for little moments on a rooftop that remind me why I’m here and excite me for what’s to come. Not knowing what the future holds is actually really exciting. It makes me dream more and want to step out in faith more. The risk could be worth it, who knows what’s on the other side?! I know the Lord’s best is waiting for me- my job is to simply listen and go for it when he says GO.
I know I’m not ready for it now because He needs this one-on-one time with me to prepare for what’s to come. And I think the longer I wait the more beautiful it will be. So here’s to the present struggles preparing me for the future reward!
