I’m finally able to look over my notes from training camp! Wow there is so much to process but so much Goooood Stuff!!
As I sit here in a cute shake shop, an overwhelming feeling came over me and I‘m Just thinking…wow I love Jesus and I am soooo blessed and thankful that I am a Christian who truly knows Him and the goodness that He brings.
I came here to write about one topic and now so many topics flood my brain. Where to even start?
For one, Training Camp was the beginning of a life changing process for most of us. I can explain what we did physically and show you pictures and videos…I am going to try my best to describe what he did to Me those two weeks but I don’t think I can ever truly explain what really went on in our hearts, soul and minds during that time. I honestly wish you could all experience what we did. Thank you Adventures in Mission/World Race team for showing us what Radical Love for Jesus looks like.
I went into Training Camp wanting to be transformed, wanting to be #WRecked and built back up. I wanted to be changed and walk away different. I was holding onto a lot of SHAME from my past that I wanted to let go and be freed from.
As a Christian I believe Jesus died on the cross for my sins. The greatest part about This is that God forgives us and FORGETS! He wants to set us FREE! He doesn’t hold our past over our heads. So why am I holding on to my past? Why couldn’t I let go of what I’ve done or said if the Creator of the Universe has already forgot?
During Training Camp I witnessed so many amazing things. One being the way God was reaching out to me.
First, I kept seeing an image of God reaching out for me to grab his hand to follow him and walk on water, to trust Him, to leave behind my past. On the land behind me was dark spots signifying sins, bad relationships, mistakes I made, the feeling of being lost, insecurities , my shame, not being enough, my guilt and regrets…i tried to look back on those dark shadows but Jesus continued to pull me forward to the light, reassuring me that everything will be ok and that I am not defined by those shadows. That it’s ok to let it go and never look back.
Second, many times he would reassure me of how he felt about me. One time during worship I asked Him “How do I actually become Free?”
He said: “Kristen, my beloved daughter, Let Go! Let Go of those times you are holding onto, those specific moments that replay in your head that you are not proud of. I SET YOU FREE, I SET YOU FREE, I SET YOU FREE. If you believe in me, you believe that your sins are forgiven and that I do not remember your past!” Ummmmm wow!!!
As I was worshipping, I literally made the motion with my hands moving across my body if I was stripping off my shame, my past. WHAT A FREEING FEELING!!
Training Camp did something amazing to my heart! I have been able to let things go and I feel free!
Will things be easy? No. Will I make mistakes or doing something I’m not proud of, of course but I have the Grace of God to allow me to move on, let go and continue to follow Him In the best way possible.
Dont let your shame or past hold you back or determine your identity. Don’t let the world tell you who you are or make you feel bad for what you have done. You have the chance to be free from all that! Decide today that you will let Go because you are forgiven, you are loved and you are a child of God!
“Since your love got a hold on me, I’m a new creation, I’m forever changed!” -United Pursuit ft Brandon Hampton
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Love, Kris xoxox
