I worked overnight at the hospital last night; this afternoon, I woke up to light peeking around the blind of my bedroom window. And as I was waking an image jumped into my heart. A large window, facing the rising sun. The morning light streaming through. A soundless, wordless image—but so much was being said. As I look at the window, I first saw the magnificent light. Then as I wondered there, I saw smudges on the glass. The room was illuminated, but these smudges transversing transparency, blocked the streaming light from coming in fully.
I think this window is an symbol of my heart. The frame of the window the foundations of my spirit—Gods faithfulness, presence and authority over my life. The framing of this beacon is my identity in Christ. The window itself my worldly experiences and my heart’s willingness to surrender.
In looking at the light streaming in, there is such a purity, a quiet warmth and security of goodness. That’s the love of God—illuminating and revealing. Its also the light of existing: loving God, loving self, loving and receiving love from others. I see also the smudges withholding the totality of the light from streaming in. I think smudges are from a lot of things—false self, fear, sin and so the list goes on in humanness. The light shows me I’m already met, and the smudges show me the urgency of deeper surrender.
Embraced. Surrender. Intimacy. Reconciled. To Community. For Kingdom Growth.
The Spirit is always moving. God gently reminds me that our hearts see the world through the glass of our hearts. No matter how smudged or clean that is. I am a daughter of the Light, I do not belong to darkness. In order to transmit light, we must first receive and see to the measure God’s light fills us. In order to see life through the lens of light, we have to give our smudges over. Well first, we have to be aware of them. The Spirit is moving to further bring forth my smudges; He offers to clean the glass of my heart—redeeming my fears, my misunderstandings of love, my pain, my shortcomings, my entire heart and story.
The processing continues. I didn’t anticipate to write or blog today, but I’m working on that “YES!” in my spirit to the the promptings of courage. In freedom, vision and newness, Light changes everything. Its all because of the Light.
For once you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light (for the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness, righteousness, and truth), finding out what is acceptable to the Lord. And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them….But all things that are exposed are made manifest by the light, for whatever makes manifest is light. Therefore He says: “Awake, you who sleep, arise from the dead, and Christ will give you light” Ephesians 5:8-14
