Well, I have about a month before I leave my home for nine months. Right now, I’m not really feeling anything. The World Race leaders told us this will probably happen. When they said last year’s racers felt numb during this time, I thought to myself, “Oh, that won’t happen to me.” Well, I suppose they were right. I’m not an emotional person, so I didn’t really know how I would react during this these nine weeks. To be honest, I feel like I’m drifting. Like, I still feel comfortable at home. I can’t wait for this next stage in my life, but I don’t know how to feel right now. It honestly just feels like I’m waiting. There are some items I still need to get before I leave, but, when I’m not thinking of that, I’m like, “What should I do now?” I want to be prepared for whatever comes in the first month while I’m gone, but I still want to enjoy the time I do have with my family. I guess what I’m trying to say is I love my home and what makes me comfortable, but I’m alright with putting that aside so I can see who I am in my Father’s eyes. I’m alright with being uncomfortable and inconvenienced. I want to grow. I can see myself blossoming into this beautiful hibiscus (I’m always loved hibiscus). They are so delicate yet beautiful. As I see a hibiscus in its full beauty, I imagine that this trip will be my transformation into something more beautiful and real. I want to embrace who God wants me to be.
These blogs have been a real encouragement to me because it helps me realize what I’m really thinking about. I hope they continue to give you a glimpse of how I’m seeing things. Thank you for reading!
