I am going to be honest. This is my first actual blog. I’ve never been much of an open person, so doing something like this is going to be interesting.
This trip will be both exhilarating and terrifying. I’ve never been away from my parents for more than two, maybe three weeks, tops. I’m an only child, so that probably makes it worse. However, I know that this trip will force me out of my comfort zone. I have been to Kenya twice for missions’ work, so I’m cultured(?). The point is, I’m not going into this totally blindsided. I’ve seen poverty and the joy within, as well as community and the family it brings.
During this trip, I want God to shape me. I know He’s going to do that no matter what, but I want to be more vulnerable with Him. I’ll be honest (again) because, currently, I’m not totally relying on Him for everything. I’ve had a hard time fully trusting Him, especially with the unknown, so I know that this will honestly make me because I won’t have someone always there physically. I’m still trying to trust Him more before I go, but I know this will help immensely.
I also want to be secure in who I am in Him. I want to learn about me through Him, especially when I’m in new situations. I know how I see myself. I just want to see me through His eyes at all times.
I want to be willing to help in any way and love unconditionally. I know we’re called to do that as Christians, but I want to do it wholeheartedly. I’ve had some experiences where I love people when they deserve judgment. It’s difficult because I think that everyone should get what they deserve, but that’s not the case with Christ. As a result, I hope to showcase Him in everything that I do. I want people to know that they are loved because I have felt unloved. I want everyone to feel like they belong because I have felt ostracized. There’s so much more that I can say, but I think this is all for now.
As an ending, I just pray that anyone who reads this may learn more about me and be blessed. As an encouragement, I pray God blesses you and gives you strength and grace. Most importantly, remember He loves you and His grace is sufficient.
