honestly Christ might’ve called me here to just learn to sit silently next to Him and be completely okay- both of our legs just hanging off the edge of our chairs swinging. i can see it. to be humbled to the realization that none of this is for me. to yes desire to grow and learn more about Him but to never put me and my needs over anyone around me for truly to live for Him is to not only give away our shirt but our cloak as well and not because we have to but because we want to. to realize ministry doesn’t have to be this huge life changing thing. to realize i was selfish and unfaithful to think our work is insignificant just because i don’t firsthand see the fruit. thank you Lord for legs swinging off of my chair moments with you. lead me to your sheep and let me do your work even if it is in secret. only in your name and your strength will i not stumble over my own desires. i want to stress the realness of how many things we place as idols in our life. literally even things that are good if they take place of the lord and his desires for us are idols baby. for me huge amounts of crazy growth was an idol- i put it above His intentions thinking i knew what was best. nah this is a rocking chair on the porch next to jesus time he said. maybe we’ll get up to pull some weeds in the garden soon but not a mountain just yet. not a big epiphany just yet. feed my sheep he tells us. feed my sheep. interesting how He does that huh
