Myanmar is not what I expected. It’s been so different than anywhere else we’ve been. well we’ve only my been to Guatemala and Thailand but it’s nothing like either of those.
This month has been hard for me. It’s definitely been my hardest month on the race so far. I don’t love it here. But the lord is using this month to grow me so much. I’m growing in my dependency on him more than anything.
The hardest part about this month has been spiritual warfare. There’s a heaviness that I feel here. We live between two Buddhist temples and almost every night we go to sleep hearing them yell and chant.
The lord one night said you’re learning how to fight. When it’s hard and your heart is heavy and it’s hard to sleep, you have to lean into Jesus. He’s showing me how to fully depend on him. I’m thankful that I don’t have to worry. That the battle has already been won and we’re living in victory. Im thankful that the Lord is already here and people are walking in freedom.
Being in Asia has been the first time I haven’t lived in a country that’s not a majority Christian. It’s been weird being in countries full of Buddhist people or being around so many people who don’t even know who jesus is. Or if they do they’re fearful of what it would cost them to choose Jesus.
But being here, I know these places are going to experience freedom. One day everyone will know the name of Jesus. I believe that chains will be broken and people will be found. The lord has changed my perspective from obligated to privileged. I shouldn’t feel obligated to serve in this country or to have to teach English for 6 hours everyday. But Instead seeing what a privilege it is to be here. It’s a privilege to serve and love these people. It’s a privilege to be planting seeds here.
The enemy knows the freedom of Jesus is coming and that there will be a revival. And he hates it. And I think that’s why I’ve been feeling this weird spiritual heaviness this month. He doesn’t want us to be here, he’ll do anything to get in our heads and try to stop us from showing the love of Jesus to Myanmar. But Jesus has already won. And I’m seeing that more than ever now.
Jesus is worth fighting for. Not only my for myself but sometimes we have to fight for other people before they even know we’re fighting for them. It might take years or even decades for the love of Jesus to spread to everyone but I’m thankful that he’s already called this country his.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned this month it’s complete dependency. I have been putting God in a box. I realized I do need to talk to Jesus about everything. Even the things I didn’t think really mattered to talk to him about. But he’s teaching me that it’s really just a friendship more than anything.
This month I’ve pressed into Jesus more than I have before. He’s reminded that I literally don’t have to worry about anything because of him. He’s showing me what it’s like to truly live from a place of victory.
“Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”
James 4:7
