I have made it to Thailand!
God took me back to my past to show me how much I have grown.
Two years ago. My prayers to God were : People I could call friends and could trust being myself with and the same for them, a community in love with Jesus and active in the life He has for us, and for me to have a place to call home.
Two years ago I feared large groups of people my age.I did not think I could have friends. I had confidence in my God but I did not have any confidence in who He made me to be. I defined myself as an awkward homeschooler. I knew God would use me but I had no ideal how he would because I wasn’t much.
Since then I got involved in a campus ministry where I found a true community of Jesus lover living life. I found an amazing group of girls who I know will always have my back. They love me for who I am and I love them also. I learned that not only was my God the most amazing thing ever but that He made me to be my own amazing self.
Now: I am on the World Race which is whole new level of community and friends. I am a leader who people look up to for wisdom and as someone who is confident in who they are.
The thing is I am still an awkward quirky person. But I don’t define myself has it anymore. I am a child of God, I am bold, I am loved, and I am seen everyday by Him.
The thing is I didn’t wake up one day and the fears I had, the mountains I couldn’t see past, just disappeared. I went through a lot awkward moments, times where I felt like nothing was changing, and so many other emotions. Yet now one day God shows me who I was two years ago and I forgot the things which were so big for me.
God is so faithful and continues to lead us through the things we never thought we can get through until we looks back and see where we are now.
A big thing I learned in South Africa is to dream big with God. With those dreams obviously comes mountains to climb and fears to face but I need to remember God is faithful and I use to think I couldn’t have friends because I was awkward… ha sometimes we don’t think things right.
I got thing little prayer by another worldrace squad here in Thailand and I think it fits well!
“Green, the color of Growth. He has shaped you, stretched you, grown you, but He is not done! He is doing a new thing, even now; he is moving with the wind through the branches. Like a sequoia you can grow faster and faster with each year that comes.”
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Hopefully this encouraged you. You are doing a great job, what ever that is before you it will one day be behind you, don’t worry!
