Disclaimer: I’m writing this blog because it’s something I need to hear.
How strong are insecurities? Well let’s just say it’s only until this year where I started confidently smiling in pictures while showing my teeth, and it was only until this year where I can push back my hair to show my ears, and it was only until this year where I’m ok with wearing T-shirts that aren’t long sleeve, and it was only this year where I don’t need to wear makeup to make myself look older, and it was only this year where I could approach people willingly instead of telling myself they don’t want to know me. Does that mean it’s not hard to do these things? No. These are my insecurities, my strongholds. However, they are not my truths.
I’m not sure it really matters how many people tell you your insecurities are just insecurities and are not truth. That’s the bandaid solution, validation and contradiction through others. The reality is that insecurities thrive through our own lens, and nothing anyone says can make us permanently unsee the things we have projected on ourselves. There comes a time however where we as individuals need to stop seeking that contradiction through others and even ourselves, and seek a permanent fix. We need to seek out the vision God has for us.
We’ve heard it before, it seems simple, yet application still seems an impossible obstacle. At the end of the day however, the way we see ourselves as less than, are not marks against us or insults to ourselves, they are marks against God and insults against his perfect vision. We can’t say we believe God is a perfect God and then turn around and say that we are not made perfect in his image, that’s not biblical and that’s not how this relationship thing with Christ works, let’s cast down hypocrisy. A pimple is not a predestined determinate of our worth in the kingdom of heaven, and our body shape is not the end all factor of our inheritance. Last time I checked, the Bible never says anything about anyone else opinion on us as being any influence on our salvation, in fact I believe it says that we can do nothing in our own power to earn the love God has already freely given us. I’m sorry but that’s just the Gospel, Jesus paid it all, there are no taxes in this economy.
Don’t get me wrong, It’s ok to want to look beautiful and it’s ok to hold ourselves to a standard that reflects God appropriately. We are representing an all high King. It’s when it becomes a distraction from realizing Gods reality, and fogs His truth, giving the enemy a completely undeserved foothold in our lives. Cheating us of seeing true value and living in the fullness allowed to us. So next time you look in the mirror, why don’t you simply ask God what He sees? I’m pretty sure he would love to tell you. And if a mirror is going to be a factor that distracts you from realizing the fullness of Christ’s love for you, or is going to be the object that allows the enemy to feed you lies, I’d encourage you to spend more time looking into the Bible and seeing what He has to say rather than the mirror. Maybe just maybe, the more we do that, the next time we decide to look in a mirror the reflection we see will be less of us and more of Christ. It comes down to choice, God already made his, he chose all of us as ambassadors, he’s preparing his brides, he’s made his choice and our steadfast Father is not moving or changing. So it’s time we did. Let’s join Him and let’s choose beauty over ashes. Let’s not be our own deterrent. What a gift it is that we are so beautiful and treasured to the king of kings. Let’s stop insulting our father by insulting ourselves but instead lift him up in praise by being confident in who we are in Him. Yes we will still struggle, we will still need to remind ourselves of truth, (it’s a constant “pick up our cross daily” kind of battle.) but it’s a fight that God has already won.
Sincerely,
Your fellow human
(Emma…. its me emma.)
P.s: you are fully known and fully loved.
Ok now im done.
