When trying to figure out what to write about, I couldn’t come up with the words to say. Well actually, thats wrong, I came up with too many words to say.
I constantly want to just scream out a thank you with everything inside of me for giving me this opportunity, and trusting the Father enough to know that He would find a way to use even me, despite all my selfishness and pride, to reach this world.
I also have the urge to give you a day-by-day hour-by-hour breifing on all the amazing incredible things that are happening all around us and in these communities and in our squad as a body… miraculous things and stories of repentance and redemption left and right!!! (But dont worry I wont do that to you lovely people just yet)
And then part of me wants to just continue talking about the inward growth that Christ has lead me into and what He’s shown me and taught me and walked me through! Theres SO MUCH Im realizing in Him and about His character and nature and how He wants to use us, His beloved children!
Part of me also feels the need to apologize for so much I’ve messed up and all for the times I was blatantly selfish. I let myself fall into apathy with responsibilities when it comes to you: my support system back home who made all of this possible through Christ with generosity and prayers, and keeping you updated with all thats going on and sharing my testimonys of Gods faithfulness like I should be. Im truly sorry.
But most desperately I just want to shout it from the rooftops how amazing and wonderful our God is! I want to go on and on for pages and pages of His goodness and power. Bless the Lord oh my soul!!! He is so worthy to be praised yall! I’ll get a little vulnerable and say I was on my face with tears just flowing this morning (and elyse hates to cry, and hates admitting to crying even more… but Gods turning her into a softy) and I was reminded that He is a redeemer and with every trial comes an invatation to know Him on a deeper level. That in itself brings sincere joy in the trials!!
Basically, there’s so much I could say, and a whole lot of it I will be saying in the future, but really I just need to tell you that this isn’t over yet. Gods not done here. In fact, I know the best is yet to come in Thailand and in lives all around. We only have three months left in the nations but God can do so much in that time and when we leave, HE’S STILL GONNA MOVE HERE!!
I’m just starting to grasp the very tip of what it means to step into wholehearted surrender and commitment, but its a journey I love. Eternity is now. There’s nothing to wait for to take insane leaps of faith. We’re already equipped with everything needed to fight in this battle because the ultimate gift has already been given! Just trust. And love.
I love you all so much and Im praying on your behalf all the time!!
