He Knew Me Before I Knew Myself…
The joy I feel from this. This has been the reminder I’ve gotten in South Africa. South Africa has been a place of resting back in the Fathers arms. I’ve received two visions here that make my heart dance. So thankful to serve a God who’s personal in His wooing. I’m a hopeless romantic if you can’t tell yet from my writing.
Ahhhh… I’m exhaling a breathe of pure contentment. So many times I think I know how I want my life to go or I have this strong desire to see something through or stick out situations that in actuality are really damaging to the soul. I’m so happy that the Lord knows the future me so he can prepare me in the present. I’m so thankful the Lord knew the me of today so He could rescue me from past me.
The reality hit me this past weekend how I’m the worst at sitting back and letting Jesus just move. I try and offer my assistance thinking I have a bit of control or an opinion to give. Silly me! Oh, the pride that needs to fall.
He knew me. He knew every sin I’d ever do. Before I even think to do it or subconsciously think it or whatever the case may be. I take on guilt and shame without realizing it. Without realizing the lie of my guilt. God doesn’t condemn me, but only views me with a blank slate.
Jesus came to this earth thinking of me, knowing me. Thinking of you! Knowing you! Knowing every awful thing you’d ever do, think, say, and act on whether you feel non-partial to it or not. I think we can view the Gospel message so la-de-da. We let it slip through our minds like loose leaf tea.
I’ve realized we are forgetful beings. We end up wondering in our own desserts grumbling to God about our “manna” becoming enslaved to the perspective cells of our mind. Sadly, but in a not so sad way we have to keep getting the key over and over. We have the key people! Jesus and we need to stop asking for the key because he gave it to us and has already set us free. Walk it out! I’m not ashamed about my brain exploding over the Gospel again and again. Im preaching to myself as much as anyone else!
My thoughts are jumbled. Not sure any of this made any sense. Kinda the worst at updating y’all on my life and what it’s like, but here’s some of my recent thoughts.
I’m just so thankful to be known. Known by my Creator! Nothing more romantic than that.
