The anecdote for pride is transparency
I have to say that the most difficult thing that I’ve had to deal with thus far on this journey is PRIDE.
To prepare for fundraising Adventure in Missions has a bible study for racers. In the study 1 of the 5 the biggest thing that could hinder you from fundraising is pride. While I have been on this journey I have recognized a lot of pride in various areas of my life specifically in finances, weight loss, and asking for HELP. Asking for help is the biggest area! Some of the racers on route 3 we have a GroupMe one day someone posted a picture it said “it’s okay to ask for help”. (Crazy right!) Prior to seeing that picture I was having a conversation with one of my roommates and she was telling me “I’ll help you just got to tell me”. I realized that I’m transparent but only if you ask the right questions or if I just truly feel lead by the spirit.
The right question now is: What makes me hesitant?
I feel like I’ve used pride as protection. At different times in my life I’ve opened up to people and it hasn’t been the best result. So I learned how to guard my heart rather wall my heart. It’s important to learn how to guard your heart and not wall in your heart.
How did you notice this?
I knew it when I first read that in the fundraiser Bible study that pride was in me and I think I’ve known it for a lot of years. Don’t take this as me trying to beat myself up but this is more of a …Oh my goodness Jesus I didn’t realize it was that deep. I feel like I’m open but I’m open to share my story when it’s not pertaining necessarily to something that I’m dealing with that a moment.
How are you going to address pride?
I will address pride by being vulnerable, being transparent to the point of letting selfishness go. Letting the “I” in me understand that you don’t rule and it’s not about me. I am constantly reminding myself that it’s ok to let down the walls.
What does this journey look like?
This journey looks like working on being able and willing to be open and let people know that “Hey I have to work on this. I have to work on learning how to ask people for help. I have to work on learning how to delegate in a way that I don’t get annoyed if someone doesn’t do it the way that I want them to do it I’m learning this. Most of all I need Jesus to continue to show me how He sees me.
It is a journey!
