Well I have been home a total of 12 days. It seems like forever and only a day all at once.
If we have talked at all you have asked me how I am and I have answered quickly without making eye contact. I don’t, or didn’t know, how I was so I couldn’t answer honestly.
If you are on X squad and asked, I have told you how hard America is.
M squad, I have described a puppy that was adopted by a nice family and are expecting an abused puppy to be normal.
God is good. He is faithful. Things I could sing and believe in my mind but couldn’t really feel…until today. I was listening to Maverick City Music and the lyrics
You and I got history
We go way, way, way, back
You and I got history
We go way, way, way back
I’m never gonna let ya go
I never have, never will
Just like that, I actually could sing with my heart that God is good, He is faithful.
America isn’t hard, it is just like every other country. America is filled with lost and broken humans, just like Vietnam, China, Mongolia, Jordan and every other country I have been to.
Not living in 24/7 community is what is hard. Not being surrounded by community that doesn’t let my lukewarm heart be enough, community that holds me to a standard, community that laughs and cries with me, community that expects me to show up, community that fights for my heart and mind, community that knows I always have more to give, community that sits at the end of a long and hard day to share stories in accents just to get a laugh…not living in that is what is hard.
Each season is sweet and I trust the Father with whatever comes of the ending of this season.
Also, microwaves have been really amazing. I am pretty happy to have those back.
