Last night during my discipleship group, my friend Adriana led us all in a study of Psalms. And let me tell ya, you think you know a little about the bible until Adriana speaks. She is literally one of my wisest friends (shout out to my LL)!
Anyway… she spoke about four different types of Psalms; lament, praise, testimony, and confession. The beauty of this book is that the authors literally write everything that’s on their mind, the details in their words and the truth they write are what bring this book to life.
Towards the end of our meeting, Adriana called us all into a time of response so we could write our own Psalm. As I asked the Lord to walk through this process with me, I was overwhelmed with feelings of doubt and fear towards my calling for the WorldRace. At first I didn’t want to write about what was exactly on my heart because Christians are supposed “to have it all together.” But it wouldn’t be a true Psalm if the author wasn’t honest.
After thought and prayer, the Lord brought these words to my heart.
How long, Lord, will I sit and watch others succeed?
I am weary.
The path I walk is barren and crumbling.
Where is the stream of living water you promise?
Why have you not taken my burdens?
Forgive me, Lord, for it is my own fear that grips me.
I pull myself away from you and still search for somewhere, something, someone to blame.
Yet in my weariness, you are still good.
You provide. You sustain.
You are the water filling my soul, the only thing that will ever satisfy.
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