If everything turns out the way it should in 4 months the launching date will be here. I still do not think it has totally hit me. Surely, it seems like it might fully hit me soon because all of the sudden there is a lot going on in my mind. The thought of leaving is starting to get real. I think for the first time the daring of my actions might be intercepting my reality. The image of what will be is being challenged by what I see. What in the world am I doing? That truly is what has been on my mind for the last few days. I love my job more than ever. Believe it or not, I somehow fight with the thought of losing contact with family and friends. What if my brothers decide to have another baby? Or someone I love decides to get married? I do not know, probably I am just realizing it will be a little harder than what I recognized. Perhaps, it is starting to get a little scary…
“For consider your calling, brothers: not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth. But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him, you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption, so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.” (1 Cor 1:26-31).
I grew up believing the opposite of what this passage speaks of. The truth that God chose what is weak, low, despised and foolish simply puzzles my mind. For months I questioned why would He do that and why wouldn’t He choose the strong and the wise like the world tells us to. At the same time, He transformed my belief and perspective. I could share my thoughts by getting into a theological conversation and have a lot of fun, but for the sake of the blog, we will simply agree that it is yet another grand paradox of the Kingdom of God. I love it, truthfully, I love it. I love that the cross remains the power behind all that we do and we get no credit. That out of nothing He creates something so no one may boast, the only boasting is in the Lord Jesus Christ. I love it because it sheds our pride. And us, the prideful people, need all the help in the world to get that pride under control.
He chose the foolish, right? Here is where we are going to introduce the eggs, the rocks, and the nail polish. Would you believe me if I tell you over two thousand dollars were raised by using those 3 “foolish” things? Right? Yeah, I would be a little surprised as well (trust me, I was shocked). I truly do not even know how to communicate my responses towards that. Little side note, if I had a dollar for every tear this fundraising journey has caused I would be fully funded by now. Back to the point, truth is, He still uses what is foolish, and weak, and low in the eyes of the world to accomplish His Kingdom work. Please do not miss it, THERE IS SO MUCH BEAUTY IN THAT. I am so aware of the fact that I am completely underprepared for what I am about to do it is not even funny. People ask so many questions and I really have no clue about what I got myself into. All I know is that Jesus has invited me to be part of this. I am certainly not the wisest nor the strongest and surely not of noble birth, but I do have Jesus. I pray that as the journey unfolds I boast in Him and Him alone. The way the Lord has used rocks, eggs, and nail polish to bring so much peace to this journey is nothing but a work of His mighty hand. You see, I suspect He is teaching me how much He truly delights in my beginning to understand there is nothing foolish in the Kingdom of God.
