I can’t tell you how many times i’ve started to write this post, I either get distracted or just can’t think of anything profound i want to write about. If there’s anything i learned through this whole process its that things don’t always make sense and they move really fast and most importantly i have not one ounce of control and thats okay.
WHY
So lets get on with what you’re actually here for; This is why and how i applied for The World Race Gap Year!!
I originally saw an ad for the world race while scrolling through my instagram feed, I am very passionate about missions and always looking for somewhere new to serve so I looked up the website and have been reading the racers blogs and researching ever since. I want to love like Jesus does, I want to love without fear or restrictions, I want to love people so well they have no other choice than to believe in God because love like that doesn’t just happen. I want to feel the heartbreak and the joy the lord feels when a child comes to him. I want to reach as many people as possible with radical love, I want to experience a love so great I will walk away different then when I
HOW
All this being said it still was not an easy decision for me to make. I was feeling a pull but i wanted to wait, i wanted a normal college life and if God still wanted me afterwards i would reconsider. So i visited colleges and researched schools while the whole time Gap Year was in the back of my head. Nothing felt right, i couldn’t picture myself anywhere i visited and i began to hear the Lord loud and clear. Go. I wrestled with this, “god how do you expect me a 17 year old girl to do something so crazy??”. But i have never heard God so loud and clear as when he told me this opportunity is what he had for me. RIGHT NOW. So with hesitations i filled out the application and scheduled my phone interview. I prayed and prayed the day of my interview that God would fill me with peace and speak completely through me. Boy oh boy did he deliver!!!!! Just one day after my phone call i received my acceptance call!! I have never been filled with so much peace,, yes it’s still stressful with fundraising and all of the supplies and sometimes it gets to me but i have learned to hand this over completely to Jesus. I know he has a lot to teach me through this journey and i couldn’t be more pumped about it!
I would love for God to break me for what breaks him, I want to feel the hurt he feels every time he is denied, and the joy he feels when someone comes to him. I want to feel the compassion and genuine love that Jesus feels for all of his children. I need to work on loving EVERY person the way Jesus does. I want to come back truly grateful for every little thing in my life. I want to have grace for every person I encounter, I want to learn to love people so radically that they wonder whats different about me. I want the Lord to take me out of my comfort zone and give me boldness to share him with everyone. I want the Lord to take away my fear of being denied and to give me the strength to pursue every one I meet.
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