A time of change, a time of growth.
Coming on the race I had little expectations. The only thing I really expected was to change in some way. I can promise you that happened and so much more:))
One of the biggest things I have learned, which I’ve said in previous blogs, is that I cannot do this life on my own. I know that sounds so simple and cliche, but if you really think about it, how many times do you actually think about God throughout your day? I have learned that God is always speaking to me, I am just not always listening.
I think my biggest struggles on the race have changed based on where I was.
In Costa Rica there was so much change & homesickness. In Africa I learned spiritual warfare is real & that the only way to truly get through it is trusting the Lord everyday. In Thailand & Myanmar, I struggled with being present & phone usage. It’s absolutely crazy how in each country there has been something I learned that I had no idea I needed to learn. God is very cool like that! He is constantly teaching me things I didn’t know I needed to learn!
I am excited/sad/nervous to go back home. I’m so excited to see my family and friends again! Excited to drive & eat Mexican food hehe. I’m excited to workout again and eat healthy foods(after I eat Mexican 1st of course). To talk to Jesus alone out loud in my car & to do Jesus time by myself at a coffee shop!
I’m excited for so many things, but I’m so sad to also be leaving my girls. My beautiful, amazing, kingdom shaking girls! I’m sad this journey I waited 2 years for is at an end. It’s just so bittersweet. However, I can confidently say, that although it is sad, God has even bigger things in store for me and my life!
The nervousness is probably a given. I’m nervous to go home changed while everyone else has changed too. I’m nervous I’ll fall back into old ways. That I’ll get too caught up in social media & life that I’ll forget to spend time with the Lord. To be perfectly honest, I’m also nervous to have hard conversations with people I love. There are too many people I love that don’t really know the Lord & how good he really is, and it makes me so sad.
2 Timothy 1:7 says,
“For the spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.”
WOW. What a powerful word! Although I am nervous, God reminds me that I do not have a spirit of fear, but one of power & love & self discipline.
I have been so blessed with this season of life. I have learned more about God & myself than I ever thought possible.
One question I know I will get a lot is “How was it?” And to be perfectly honest, words can’t even describe this experience. The best way I can explain it is that this was a beautiful season of learning who God is & who I am. Learning what a good community looks like and that I will never be able to do this life on my own. That I will forever continue to devote my entire being to him.
I am in true awe of God and all his ways. I cannot wait to continue growing in relationship with him! The Lord is so sweet, so good & I am forever blessed to have such a beautiful relationship with the creator of all things.
