I’ve been pursuing a relationship. It’s a relationship I’ve been in for a couple of years now, but I wanted it to go deeper.
I’ve had trust issues. I’ve had a hard time accepting love. I’ve had a hard time believing that he will never leave and always be there to comfort me. I’ve had a hard time believing he is faithful.
I decided to focus on this relationship with God because I desired to be closer to Him. I wanted to trust Him, accept His love and comfort, and know that He is faithful. And to know that He is only one who will never leave me!
I think this is what led to my dream…
I had a dream where someone and I were searching for a small silver ring. We were standing in front of a wooden vanity with drawers, frantically searching through them for this dainty silver ring. I tried on ring after ring. I still didn’t find the one. We were searching everywhere.
I woke up and felt like I still needed to find a silver ring. Would I know which one it was if I saw it? So as we are going about, my eyes are watching for anything I saw in my dream.
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It’s Friday night and Valerie wants to go stay the night with a friend. She can’t go by herself.
From the beating in my heart, I know I’m the one who is supposed to go with her. Why? I don’t know. But I went. I followed Val and Sarai around almost feeling like a third wheel.
I spent the whole day and night praying, especially when Sarai would do her prayers to Allah and Mohammed (5 times a day).
We ate delicious food and had many laughs. I was known as “the calm one” that day.
I really am oblivious to the conversations she and Val had because I wasn’t engaged in them. I rarely talked to Val, but tried to give her assurance that Jesus was with us.
The next day we went to the forrest with Sarai. It’s a beautiful place where you can see mountains, all kinds of trees, and the Sea and Ocean.
God’s creation was all around.
I continued to pray for Val and Sarai while they talked as I walked behind or in front of them.
Then this happens. Sarai says to Valerie, “Val, I have to tell you this because I love you, but what you believe is not true. Jesus is a lie.”
That hit me hard, and it wasn’t even said to me. Sarai said it with such love and genuine intentions. She really believes in Islam.
Sarai is fierce after God. She wants to be close to Him. She said she feels so close to God during her prayers. She knows some truths about God’s character.
Prayer is all I had.
She stayed the night with us Saturday after we stayed with her Friday.
We got to spend a lot of time with her.
I can’t explain how hard it was to pray that day. It’s like something was constantly coming up against my prayers.
There was an army of people praying for us that night, and I still felt resistance. I can’t image what it would have been like if I was the only one praying.
This is endurance.
I came home extremely exhausted. Why? I didn’t do anything but pray for 2 days. Should I be this exhausted?
I just wanted to come home and collapse in scripture.
Jesus isn’t a lie. I’ve seen Him over and over. He is real. He is alive.
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Emily and I went to the mall to see one of our friends. She had other friends that came by to talk.
Imediately, I notice a girl with a silver ring on one of her fingers. It was the same finger I had been trying the rings on in my dream.
I point to it and ask her about it. She shows it to me. It’s a nail wrapped around with diamonds in the middle. I try to ask her about it and she says, “Clone.”
I don’t know what that means, but we invited her to hang out with us this week.
We left and Emily asked if I recognized that the ring had three bands. (Three has been a number that has been coming up every day multiple times a day for me.)
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I will trust God and see what happens. We have less than two weeks left in our apartment in North Africa.
I’m committed to God.
Until I find the silver ring,
Brishna Kaylene
