I hope you just sang those lyrics in your head.
I’m not scared. I’m not nervous. The goodbyes weren’t hard, but packing was a different story. I know I will learn a lot and grow tremendously this year. My excitement is buried deep down while I observantly live in the unknown.
Written August 3, a day after arriving to Atlanta.
Scripture that’s been on my mind as I take my sweet time through the New Testament:
One
Matthew 16:23 … Jesus says to Peter, “You are a hindrance to me because you’re not thinking about God’s concerns, but human concerns.”
CONVICTION!
Packing and being fully funded have been the concerns at the front of my mind. Those are not God’s concerns, but my own. I do not want to hinder the Spirit because I am worrying about my own insignificant things and not the concerns of God. I don’t want to miss what He has.
So… I’ve been asking God what His concerns are.
Two.
I finally understand… at least a little bit.
Matthew 13:44-46 “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure, buried in a field, that a man found and reburied. Then in his joy he goes and sells everything he has and buys that field.
“Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls. When he found one priceless pearl, he went and sold everything he had and bought it.”
The man that bought the field… While he bought the field, that’s not what he wanted. He wanted the treasure. But of course he couldn’t have the treasure without buying the field. I read this and felt like I could somewhat relate, especially where I am right now. I feel like God has buried treasure in this season of my life, but to get to the treasure, first I had to buy the field. This could mean so many things – the gear, fundraising, leaving everything, and so much more that probably hasn’t been revealed to me yet. I’m still pondering this thought.
It is the second day of launch. Before launch we had the option to get a “Keys for the journey” key. This is a key necklace that has a word on it. These words are prayerfully sought after for each individual. I am excited to find out what it means. My word is…
BURN
I’m going into this journey, and I have no idea what it holds. Stay tuned.
Ways you can pray for me, my team, my squad, and our leaders:
Pray that we are willing and open for the Spirit to move others to Christ through us.
Pray that we will not focus on our concerns, but the concerns of God.
Pray for communication for our team.
Pray for boldness and humility.
Pray for healing this year.
Pray for freedom in worship.
Pray for God to absolutely wreck our lives, grow us, make us more like Him.
Pray that we come back different.
Pray for something to BURN in me.
Pray what you feel led to pray.
So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. Hebrews 4:16
