This is just an update on where I am since I haven’t posted in a while.
Actually, I don’t know where I am because I feel like I haven’t existed for a while, but I am coming back. That’s why I am able to write this now.
I haven’t been the best.
I can’t really write what I need to say to tell you how I am. I just feel alone.
I am in a season of waiting on the Lord. There are things I do not understand now, but I hope to look back and see how God worked everything together according to His plan.
There are demons in my room at night. They watch my body. But there is a dome around me, and angels are fighting to protect me.
I am broken.
I am weak.
I need the Lord’s help.
I can’t do anything on my own.
I feel stupid.
But I do know that God is real. He is faithful. I will draw near to Him when times are good, when times are bad, and when it feels like time does not exist. I will draw near to Him. And I will praise Him through every circumstance.
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God,
Your steps I will follow. I put my trust in who You are. Your voice is my arrow… I can’t be shaken with your words hidden in my heart.
Greater than I could ever dream.
Further than I could ever see.
Who can compare to the greatest wonder?
Higher than I could ever reach.
Stronger than I could ever be.
Nothing compares to how You love me.
I will lift my eyes to things unseen, to the promise in your victory, and I will build my life on the mystery of where you call me, and I will go into the unknown.
Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God, and He will come near to you. James 4:7-8
