I Freaking LOVE Rwanda!
This month has been the first time since Serbia that I have felt super strong in all the areas (physically, mentally, emotionally & spiritually), but I also have come to realize that the enemy is also attacking me by means of getting inside my head & putting lies in my head, and manifesting those lies by means of giving me dreams in hope of breaking me down once again like he did in Cambodia.
But I have learned my lesson, and I am not going to let him get the better of me this time around for I am prepared, and I have trained myself & my mind to fight back similar to if I was training myself back when I was doing boxing training before the race as well as the power of prayer.
So here are the lies that the enemy has been attempting to tell me, and trying to take my joy that I have this month:
1. My friendship with one of my squadmates that according to the enemy is going to amount to nothing, and that our friendship is just for show. Along with the fact that she doesn’t see our friendship the same way as I do.
2. Along that same line, the enemy is also attacking the family feel that we have among P Squad, and like my friendship, the enemy has been telling me that when Boston comes, I’ll just walk away from that friendship & all the other relationships/friendships that I have built on P Squad.
I have actually had dreams about this happening in the dream where I grab my bag, and walk out the doors without anknowledging anybody.
3. That I’ll just end up going back to my “old” life, and give in to all the temptations that I walked away from when I came on the race.
4. That there is no point in going home because home isn’t the same as I left it 11 months ago.
My clapback to the enemy in response to these lies:
First off, F you as you cant control me or my thoughts
Second, my answer to #1 & #2: Any attack on this friendship that I have with her cuts me deep, and while I know that we’ll be parting ways in Boston, I would like to think that our friendship will be for the long run, and I do pray that she does view our friendship the same way as I do. I know that I’ll be sure to hug & say goodbye to everyone of my squadmates before leaving the airport cause they have become a part of my family. I also know that in my heart I’ll never forget her or the rest of my P squadmates for the rest of my life.
#3: Hell no am I ever back to my “old” life as I have come to realize that I am tired of busting my butt for others, and getting overlooked by them. I know what I am capable of, and the only person that I need approval from besides myself is God, and God will reward his faithful servants in due time. I know that God sees me as a leader for him, and he is going to use me in that role in his kingdom.
#4: Home does matter, and yes I know that home has changed, but that was something that I knew was going to happen when I left for the race in the first place, so I know I can handle the changes.
So yeah, I know that I am coming home a changed women of God, so if you couldn’t handle me at my worst then there is no way you can handle me at my best for I am now a fighter for God instead of a fighter for myself in terms of my old life.
So watch out satan for if you try to go toe to toe with me then you’ll be TKO in the 1st round cause I know all of your dirty tricks & moves, and I will counter every one of them cause I have Christ in my corner & the power of prayer.
Til next time Your fellow sister in Christ,
Bonnie
Team Titan
P squad
Psalms 18:2
YOLO
