So I’m finally back on the grid after spending a month off the grid! I’m currently sitting at the gate of the Nairobi airport getting ready to fly to Rwanda & into month 10!
One of the interesting things that has happened to me is I have realized that I’ve been having dreams more when I sleep. So far I’ve had 2 dreams that I remember after I woke up. Now if you know me then you’ll know that
1. I dont dream often but when I do I almost always forget the dream as soon as I wake up
2. This dream has stayed with me for so long that I had to journal about it & that is also something that I rarely do.
Time: present day
Location: a hostel somewhere in one of the countries we went to serve in
Viewpoint: I was watching myself in my dream
Setting: sometime during one of our many debriefs chilling at the hostel common area. My squadmates were around doing there own thing but it seemed like we were all there but not fully present or anknowledging one another. (on a separate note, this part of my dream did actually come to happen while we were serving in Ethiopia)
Me: sitting on the couch in the common area working on my laptop with my headphones in my ears
One of my squadmates approaches me & I see her so I take my headphones out & nod at her. My squadmate proceeds to tell me that K wants to see me in her room, I agree and get up to follow her to K’s room. When we arrive my squadmate warns me that K isnt feeling well, but I tell her that it doesn’t matter to me & she smiles then opens the door. We enter the room quietly & walk over to K’s bed on the lower bunk, her eyes are closed. I walk over to the opposite bed & set my stuff down before sitting on the other bed to wait. I look over at K and I could tell that she was really sick ( sick like she was one night back in Belize) I felt my heart sink as it really hurt me to see her like this (agian similar to how i felt back in Belize).
My other squadmate spoke to K & patted her on her arm, and she opened her eyes and my other squadmate told her that I was there, and she motioned for me to come over to her bedside, I got up & walked over to her bedside & kneeled down beside her. K started to lift herself up onto her elbows to greet me, but I motioned for her to stay down which she obeyed. My other squadmate gets up to leave the room in order to give us some privacy, but before she leaves she tells K that she hopes she feels better, K tells her thank you, and she walks out of the room.
A few minutes pass before K speaks to me in a weak voice, “thank you for coming to see me as I knew I could count on you to be here for me like you always are when I’m down.” I smiled and looked at her, trying hard not to show my emotions as inside I was really worried about her. I replied back to her by saying ” that what she said to me really meant alot to me, and that I was going to stay with her for as long as she wanted me to stay.” I put my hand on hers K smiled and told me that would great if I did that for her before she closed her eyes, and fell asleep. I stayed there kneeled down with my hand on hers, and I began to pray for her.
Then my alarm went off in real life, and I woke up, but I laid on the couch for a bit longer as I was trying to make sense of the dream I just had. As I laid there, I prayed to God as I felt the need to pray for K just in case something was really going on with her.
This was my prayer:
Lord I come before you to ask you to place your hand of protection over Kaitlin, Lord protect her from whatever it is that is causing her any kind of thoughts or feelings that are not from you Lord. Lord I ask that you protect her health & well being from whatever it is that is not from you. She is your daughter Lord and you are the great protector of your children. In your name I pray Amen.
