Wow, it just seems like God has been speaking to me through our church’s pastor these past few weeks as pretty much every sermon that Pastor Rob has preached as hit me in some kind of way, and has given all kinds of feels.
Today was no different as once again his sermon spoke to me, and made me think about something that to be honest freaks me out, but that there is no avoiding it, and that is when my final time comes, what kind of legacy do I want to leave behind to be remembered for? I know that may sound a bit morbid to you my readers, but to be honest death and our legacy is something that we all must face at some point, and once we accept that then we can truly be at peace with ourselves.
I have had to learn that lesson the hard way because there was a point in my life when I truly felt like I was indestructible, I felt like nothing could happen to me, and to farther hammer this notion home, I actually got mad at the nurse at my doctor’s office when she asked me if I had a last will & testament- I was 23 at the time, so yeah that explains it all right there for I was young wild & stupid.
Flash forward a few years:
both of my parents had life threatening health issues but pulled through
I have had close family members pass away suddenly
Both of these events made me realize that everyone that I love will one day be gone, and I know that its gonna hurt so it makes me want to spend as much time with them as I can because I know one day they won’t be there.
I also battled my own demons, and almost lost to those demons when I was 27 years old
So yeah it’s safe to say that I have a better outlook on life, and just how precious life really is which I gained from my own personal experience. But having gone through these things have not only helped me grow and become a stronger person, and this morning’s sermon about title and testimony really hit a nerve with me, and made me think about what will be my legacy once my turn comes.
So what do I want people to remember about me?
I want to be remembered as a free spirit who lived life by her own rules, and who also had a passion for many things in life. Those passions include but not limited to- my love of sports and my sports teams especially the fact I was such a diehard University of Michigan fan, and my burning hatred for that team down south, my love of golf, and the fact that I was a former athlete going on to compete in college which is something that not everyone can say they did, history and reenacting the American Civil War, love of travel & photography and how I never went anywhere without my camera, my love of music and theatre and all the quirky & random hobbies I had like woodworking and the interest I had in the paranormal. The fact that I was an only child. How I loved to talk in front of a crowd despite having a stutter, and how I never let that hold me back from anything I ever wanted to do in life, and my random career path.
My passion for my church, and all the ways I served the church that I grew up in from youth to adult. My time in BSF as that was a huge part of my life too. My heart for mission work as well. The assurance to others that I was indeed saved by grace & I did fully accept Jesus Christ as my Savior when I was in high school.
My personality as while I could be quiet & shy at first once I opened up to you I was wild and outgoing, was friendly & very accepting of others, how I used to stand up for others, and never really fell into a cliché I was strong and independent with a stubborn streak, but most importantly I was fiercely loyal to my friends and family plus I had a weird sense of humor too.
These are the things that I want to be remembered for, and the legacy that I want to leave behind.
As I finish up I want to leave you with a quote that my best friend wrote to me:
“What legacy will you leave? What legacy will I leave? Consider that as you make choices. As you treat others.”
Think about your own life & what kind of legacy do you want to leave for your children/grandchildren? Write it down & put it away safe for them to read one day, trust me they’ll thank you for it. This I challenge you to do.
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Til next time your fellow sister in Christ,
Bonnie
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