“We have nothing to fear but fear itself.”-FDR
So it has been a few months since I got accepted into going on World Race, now as the amazement/shock/excitement of taking on this challenge has worn off, now the reality of it all has hit me. I must confess that I am a little bit (ok a lot) freaked out about what I have gotten myself into with this whole Race. Sure I’m still excited about going, and have no plans on backing out, but still that old nemesis of mine that I tend to fight a lot has creeped into my thoughts, and that is self doubt, and the mindset of do I really want to do this? Its hard since I have so many things going on in my head about all the possibilities that I will face while on the World Race including both the good and bad. I have been reading other racers blogs to try to get a idea of not only some the ministry that I might be doing in some of the actual countries that I’ll be serving in, but also reading about their struggles, and thinking to myself if I might have to face those same struggles.
So for once I am going to take my friend’s advice and make a list of those thoughts that have crept into my head about some my worries about going the Race:
1. Getting bit/stung by some weird/poisonous bug/spider/scorpion etc.
2. Getting sick in general
3. the Africa leg of my Race
4. the amount of flying that is involved as I really am not a fan of flying to begin with.
5. Something major happening to my loved ones back home
6. Not being able to raise the funds that I need for the trip, and getting sent home due to lack of funds.
7. Fear of offending someone in some way especially in the coffee producing countries since I don’t drink coffee.
8. Finding a new job once I get home from the Race as soon as possible as I do not want to ever be unemployed again for any length of time.
9. being asked to be the Treasurer since I really don’t like handling money, plus I am horrible at math.
10. Getting all my important gear into my backpack that I’ll need for the year
11. passing the fitness test at training camp (I am built more like a linebacker then a distance runner)
12. meeting my fellow squadmates/teammates for the first time face to face (I’m friends with some of them on FB & IG, but still its not the same as the in person meeting) as I have a tendency to be a little shy and I worried that might put people off me.
So yeah that is the list. I know that I will be praying for help to ease my mind over these fears since I know that God is greater then my fears, and he is the one that can take these fears away.
But YOLO right?
Til next time your fellow sister in Christ,
Bonnie
Psalms 18:2
