Today the Lord gifted me with a moment of looking through his eyes. I took the position of a teacher at The Sunshine School. Of course, I didn’t realize that I would be teaching until about five minutes before class started. She gave me the lesson plan for the day and told me to go for it. We taught the class their C’s and fours
The class started with roll call. Afterwards, they recited the letters and number they had already learned. Then called each student up individually and showed them how to write a C in their workbook. Once all the workbooks were given out and the children started to finish they each brought up their workbook so we could check it. Each one of them was doing such a great job. I was giving high fives left and right!
That’s when I meet Nehemiah. The sweetest little boy who had the hardest time with his C’s. I had to erase his entire page, the problem was every single one was backward. I showed him which way they were supposed to be written and sent him back to his seat to try again. A little while later he came up again. His page was filled out and the first couple rows were correct but after a while, the C’s started to go backwards again or they would be complete circles. I started to erase the work he had already done and he became angry with me.
He didn’t understand that the C’s where wrong, and didn’t seem to want to accept my help. So I took the pencil and placed it in his hand and we did a row together. He then sat on my lap and I watched as he slowly formed each C. Each one not the same as the last but he seemed so determined to get it right. He eventually finished the entire page and I smiled at the amazing work he had done. We did the rest of the work together including his fours. He stuck by my side the rest of the class and proudly showed me his work each time he finished. We became best friends and I had so much love for him even though we had met only hours before.
I learned so much, to see what the Lord see’s when we make mistakes. Nehemiah represents me and that little workbook is my life. God gives me the tools to live life to honor him in everything I do he shows me how to write the C’s properly, but I take what I know is right and run off with it and either do what I want with it or ignore it completely.
I walked throughout my life writing my C’s backwards and then became frustrated when things would fall apart. Then the Lord finds me he takes me into his arms and takes that paper full of backward C’s and erases it all. Giving me a white piece of paper. Pure and without blemish the past mistakes and sin are gone because I am covered in Christ blood. Still after all that I have still wandered out of the Lords will doing things my way because I thought it was better. He never leaves me still there always waiting with open arms to lead me back onto the right path. Again he will purify me, giving me a clean piece of paper. Even when he knows that I will mess it all up again.
I look at my life in the past. I get taken back to my nine-year-old self when I accepted Jesus into my heart. But over the years what I was taught was right, faded I wanted nothing to do with the Lord and looked for my value in the things of the world. But it never seemed to work out. I was never fully satisfied and I hated myself and the world. Wondering why I got the bad end of the deal. I lived like this until eighteen years old when I meet the Lord in a school in Uganda. He showed me what he had for me and I committed my life to him to live my life for whatever was in his will. Even after that, I have still fallen into temptations and desires of the flesh. But he is still here loving me and erasing my sin. And now here I am on the other side of the world in India at The Sunshine School being reminded by the little boy that my Father has erased my backward C’s and given me a pure white sheet of paper and no matter how many times I fall down he will be there to love me and pick me back up.
