The World Race has left me with so many feelings and emotions that I never expected. Prior to being accepted I was nervous, yes, but more than anything I was excited beyond belief. My WILDEST dreams were coming true and that was truly like a fairytale.
But I also think there is a part of the fairytale that they don’t tell you about. You watch this princess’s journey of overcoming odds and beating adversity and ending up with this dream life and then the story just ends with “Happily ever after.” I don’t know about you but I was left under the impression that “Happily ever after” meant the hard part was over. That phrase to me meant that the ever after was always happy. But that’s not true.
Almost immediately after being accepted panic set in. I had this overwhelming screaming voice in my head saying “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?” I trust God and I believed that he would see me through but the size of the task that I had signed up for completely overwhelmed me. So, in order to function I pushed it down and ignored it and continued to live my life as if it wasn’t happening. I was accepted to do the race on November 2nd and it was probably January before anyone other than my closest friends even knew it was happening.
I kept telling myself that’s so many months away I will focus on it later. I have spent the past 5 ½ months running from what’s happening. But even during that time God has absolutely shown Himself faithful. I have NO IDEA how I have raised $3,500 because in all honestly haven’t really tried that hard. This is just another way that God is showing me that The World Race is what I am supposed to do. In times when I have been weak and overwhelmed, people who were strong surrounded me. They fought for my dreams when I didn’t have the courage to do it myself. I literally find myself in tears every time I get a donation because it is a reminder that there are people out there who love me and believe in me.
I haven’t really blogged because this is what I’ve been going through and I didn’t want to fake it. I didn’t want to create some rainbows and butterflies blog posts when that’s not what was happening in my life. But, the fog is lifting and I am feeling a lot better. I am truly excited again and I am ready to hit the ground running! I have to say thank you to everyone who carried me to this point whether you knew you were doing it or not.
Big thanks to:
- Every single person who has donated
- Anyone who has asked me “How is preparation for the race going?” even when I tried to ignore the question or change the topic because I didn’t want to talk about it.
- Everyone that has said “I’m so excited for you!”
- Everyone that has given me a smile or a word of encouragement.
- Especially everyone that has been faithful in praying for me.
Your prayers, words, and actions have sustained me! I WOULD NOT be here without you. Grateful isn’t nearly a big enough word to describe how I feel. I love you all.
