At training camp we were asked what our yes looks like for the next year… and in that moment my life looked very different than what it does right now.
But back to the “yes”… so much of what I am about to go do for 11 months is because of a yes I said. Three letters that have so much power, and its one word that the Lord loves to hear from His children. So if I knew that He loved it when my response is a simple “yes”, why don’t I respond that way all the time?
thats a good question
I think its because that word has so many consequences. This has been the hardest year of my life by far.. some of it is out of my own human nature and mistakes… and some of it is just life. But I strongly feel the consequences of the yes I said months ago. But what do I do when my life is so different than what it was 8 months ago?
I recently lost one of my closest friends.. and the hole that was created in me is indescribable. Even as I write this, my heart feels like its sinking deeper and deeper. I can barely utter a yes right now. See, something happens in you when you ask God to shape you no matter the cost. I hurt deeply now.. but I also rejoice like I have never rejoiced before. I have learned to let the joy of the Lord be my strength regardless of emotions. As I become more and more like Jesus, that doesn’t mean that there won’t be tears and hard times, it just means that sorrow isn’t the end for me anymore. And emotions aren’t my enemy, they help me understand the heart of my Father more. The way I long to see my friend again, is only a glimpse of how much God wants to be with us.
My yes is very weak right now. and yet I feel the Lord smiling down on me because it was never based on the strength of my yes but on His strength all along. And right now I am reminded of the vow I made to my team this next year which was that I will, in all circumstances, sing over my disappointments. I promise to always sing, no matter how weak my voice may be or how many times my voice cracks. That is my yes for this next year.
What is your yes? I would love to hear from you, comment below!
Psalms 71:23
“My lips will shout for joy when I sing praise to You, because You have redeemed me.”
