Don’t know if you’ve ever heard the song “you’re the only one” by Chris Renzema, but if you haven’t, you should probably take a listen.
We’ve sang that song during worship probably four times since we’ve been here. Never heard the song before i got in Thailand, but now i hear it close to every day.
If you’ve read my testimony in my last blog (if u haven’t u can still!!!), you’d know that i’ve tried to fill myself with things of the earth. you’d also know that i failed miserably at that. The Lord taught me a lot about dependency in Guatemala, a lot about trust and grace and His character. I began to let Him be the one to fill me up. Such a good feeling, let me tell you.
I’m in Thailand now. Thailand is hard for me. A lot of spiritual heaviness and it’s really easy to lose sight of everything that the Lord taught me in Guatemala because of what’s surrounding, but the Lord has been reminding me of this song day by day.
Even when I have everything I “need” around me (markets, the mall, milk tea), even when I don’t have the opportunity to share about Jesus, when rarely anyone here believes what I do, even when the Lord is so pushed away in this culture, He fills me up and He helps me to push forward. He reminds me that everything here is nothing I need, nothing that will satisfy me, but that even if He is so hidden in this country, He’s still right there, out in the open.
And it’s really hard. It’s hard to not see the fruit of the labor, to come on a mission trip and only be able to share surface level of what the Lord has done for me. It’s hard, but the Lord is still faithful. He’s still on His throne, in America, in Guatemala, and even in Thailand.
