Daddy’s #1 Fan
I am a huge fan of my parents. Growing up they were always present and for me and my siblings that ment that they didn’t miss our soccer games, swim lessons, concerts, basketball games and school activities. My parents between the 3 of us were pretty big fans. Hardly ever did we not have at least one of them in the stands watching us.
The coolest part of this was getting to have someone support you though tough losses but also encourage you when you could play better. My parents were my biggest fans. They truly showed me what it looks like to sacrifice for those you love and how to go the extra mile for those you love. This is something that I try super hard to implement in my life. I love loving people.
I love seeing people’s potential and challenging them, but also loving them as they strive towards being their best selves. This means becoming a part of their lives. I don’t like being a spectator in people’s lives.
If I am going to be a part of your life I want to be all in. I want to know what makes you tick and how I can love you well and I want to strive to do this well.
I love calling and asking my mom questions and talking about things. I also get rejuvenated by picking my dad’s brain about the latest things going on in my life. I love being a part of all the families I work, I love doing life with my friends and people I do life with. We are all in different stages of life but above all I hope that people know I care. I care a lot because God cares. But also my parents showed me how to care. People and living things are the only things that have worth in life to me. Nothing else has the weight of people, people are fragile but also strong. They are capable of great things and I always want to see the potential in that.
I am a Fan of people.
Saying Goodbye has really hurt. One of my friends was even like, “I could totally have a baby while your gone!” I know she was mostly kidding around but the weight of that hurt. I could miss this whole huge chunk of her life. Another friend is just starting to date someone that could be a part of her life for a very long time and yet I will be observing from miles… MILES away. This is super hard for me as one would say in our house “I can’t like it!”
Circling back to my Dad, this hit home yesterday. His football team for those who don’t know is the Vikings and ya’ll Sunday’s game was crazy. His team pulled through in the last like 40 seconds and I missed it. We were going into session with the last 10 mins on the clock.
I had to choose being obedient to what the Lord had for me over my desire to watch that game…. and it was on a big screen in the lobby of the hotel. It was right there, and I know my siblings were watching wherever they were and I am sure my dad was going nuts.
Like any good sports fan my nerves were on edge as I was trying to focus on the worship music. I had made peace but my teammate who loves me kept checking the score. The score changing 4 times in the last few minuets. Man anything can happen in the last few mins of a game.
Well it hit me hard, this large part of my dad’s life I am going to miss. I am going to be miles away probably hearing about the super bowl through second hand maybe not even when it happens.
But, as I was singing songs and thinking about what I am about to do, guys I am a fanatic for God and I am actually a player on his team. As I get ready to leave and process I have realized that I cannot be a fan in my own life.
Owning what he has called me to do and choosing to be obedient has been hard. Being a fan for those I love from a distance is going to be hard for me. I will miss the ins and outs of everyday life and I can’t wait to hear their stories. Life here is not on hold while I am gone.
Nor should it be stopping for them. I am going to miss babies being born and weddings and friends falling in love. But I will be experiencing the best that God has for me, exactly where he has called me to be.
A huge chunk of my heart is staying here and that is okay. It will probably hit me more when we are boarding the plane for haiti in a few hrs but this adventure that God has me on is my race. I plan on running it to the best of my ability and I am excited to see what God has for me.
