Its Saturday morning. I check my watch—5:54am. While the world sleeps around me, my mind lays awake, reminding me of the To-Do list I haven’t yet started. Though the list continues to grow with every sun down, the opportunity of a new day motivates me enough to leave the comfort of my bed. I find myself seated at the kitchen table, French-pressed coffee in hand (obviously), sitting in front of a blank blog entry, watching the space bar blink, fingers at rest. I sit back , Okay Lord, I’m listening. Put a word in my mouth.
Entering into this extensive process (Side note: if you don’t know what this process is, refer to my “Support Raising” blog), my squad and I have discussed and encouraged blogging. Blogging allows the opportunity for followers and subscribers, donators, and family to keep up to date on where you’re at in the whole process before, during, and after the Race. A task that brings upon an unwritten expectation to woo my readers with a new thought, an inspired word, or a profound idea. So I sit frozen, afraid that this won’t be “exciting” or worth the time, or that my words may come out jumbled. Blogging can be vulnerable; the words that are written are shared with my God, and now—you. Just then, I sense familiar doubt rising, is this a good enough read?
And as soon as I begin questioning once again, Is this really what you have for me, Lord? Am I capable? Worthy? Adequate to pursue this mission? Do I have the endurance to support raise? Share Your vision? I am silenced just as fast. My doubts inch back, consumed by His peace. You know, the peace that we always pray for? The peace that passes all understanding? It never made sense to me at the possibility of that peace. But in this moment, the peace is unexplainable. My questions seemingly futile and immature in His Presence. Because at the end of my questions, His truth resounds—where you are incapable, I will QUALIFY you. Where you are unworthy, my Son has made you worthy. Where you are uncomfortable, saying my NAME will cast out fear. Where finances are great, remember child, I am in control.—At that, my soul is refreshed, and my spirit at ease.
And then I realize the simplicity of His mission; I inhale..exhale..inhale.. He has given me the very breath I breathe, He is the Source and the Sustainer of it. He reminds me of the mission that He placed upon my life and sealed upon my heart. Isaiah 30:21 says, “Whether you turn to the right or the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you saying, ‘This is the way, child, walk in it.” It’s simple. It’s not necessarily my end destination, but rather the every day consulting the Lord in my every decision.
So I realize there are no words worthy that I can type that will woo you, reader. No. But my prayer would be that through this blog, Jesus’ words would resonate, that it would refresh your soul as He did mine this morning, and that your spirit would bask in the absolute peace and rest that the Father gives when we ask.
My fingers begin to type.
My God promises me in Ephesians 3:20, that He is able to do exceedingly and abundantly more that I could ever ask or think, according to His power that is at work within me. And in this next phase, I can’t wait to join His mission to be absolutely blown away by the power of our God. Because Ephesians 3:21 goes on to say, “to Him be the glory..”, not for my blog to be successful, or my year to be the trip of a lifetime (which it will), but all for HIS GLORY, guys. That’s it—that’s my mission.
So I ask you reader, will you prayerfully or financially partner with me in this journey? Can we be blown away by His capability through the work of His children together?
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