A few days I was up trekking in the mountains in Nepal. My new team Beautiful Things went up to pray and minister to the people in the faraway villages as well as our fellow travelers we met along the way. I am thankful for all the people we met and got to tell about Jesus.
I walk away from the mountains thankful for more clarity. A few days before I left on the world race everyone on my squad was given a key with a word stamped into it. The word I got was ‘faith.’ I was pretty resentful of the word on my key. I mean what the heck, everyone else got cool words like ‘renew’ and ‘wild.’ The word ‘faith’ feels so dry sometimes, too Christian and overused.
While we were up in the mountains I was talking about how if I could die having lived up to one word, I would choose the word ‘fearless.’ I want to be known for being fearless. God spoke to me though up, in the misty quiet shadow of the mountains. Being fearless and having faith are the same. They are both about unshakable trust.
When I started the race I thought I had faith. I took the ‘faith’ inscribed key and shoved it deep down in my backpack. But I haven’t forgotten about it. It’s like God won’t let me forget. He’s shown me so many things in my life I believe are impossible, even with Him. There are several people in my life I feel like God can’t heal. There are situations I see where it feels like things are too far gone. There is brokenness I’ve encountered all over the world, and it feels hopeless.
Instead of having faith I sit in fear. Classic Saylah, full of preoccupations and plans to fix things. If there’s anything I’ve learned so far, its been about praying your way out of these feelings. Little by little, God is His infinite mercy shows up and intersects the situations I bring before Him. I have more testimonies of His Faithfulness in these last 5 months than I could possibly write down. He has feed the hungry, He’s healing the broken and sick, He has brought dear friends, He has dried every tear.
Right now I’m finishing up my fundraising, a leap of faith, and a dose of fearlessness. I still have $3,400 more to raise. If you’d like to support financially you can by donating directly to my blog. Or another exciting way is you can buy a t-shirt here:
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As always, I love you all.
