I have always enjoyed singing. And I have always sang often, especially when I am alone.
In my early 20s I began a carrear in Karaokee. I would go at least once or 2x a week for fun and attention, to perform at a dive bar, and sometimes with a live band. Becoming addicted, I often closed the bar down around 4am.
In the span of 6 years I sang over 150 different karaoke songs. *I have a Spotify playlist with most of the songs I have sung.
Stage fright went away for me quickly, maybe because I felt no one was grading me, not everyone was paying attention in a dark and crowded place, and also liquid courage.
I really came alive in this arena!!!
In 2016 my life circumstances changed. Over time I quit going out as much because I took on new interests and Loves. I began the journey of getting spiritual fulfillment and wholeness from the hand of Jesus.
I still sang often.
In 2018 I got a UKE to accompany my voice.
I often am shaking when singing live. I mess up the chords and I can feel my throught closes up a bit, changing the sound.
But despite that, I have pushed through nervousness, and have been honored to do so much with song over the past year.
I have been able to sing at Chuch and lead in Worship to GOD, with the Praise Team.
God has been nudging me to live more creatively, not just sing songs already written, but make up my own.
So far I have some parodys, and some love songs to Him.
This has been a developing point of connection with the Father.
This year I have sang more in public than ever before!!
While visiting a friend in Indonesia, I played Uke at least on 3 occations where she broke down the meaning of the lyrics for the listeners.
And guess what, the songs I sing are from Gods word.
The words of God hold weight, are truth, and are alive. They have the power to change hearts.
Not brainwash.
We are given a choice, to decide if we want to have our Will follow the things God puts on our heart.
(He is a gentleman.)
Music is one of the many ways God has shown me more of Him & His love for this world is wider and deeper than I had thoguht.
Because I have seen Him use music to unlock doors in peoples hearts that are around me.
(God is the most resourceful.)
I have 2 past blogs, that go into more detail of ways God has used song to open conversation, plant seed, usher His presence, and ultimately Worship Him.
One occation was on a stage in front of a mosque during a religious celebration.
The other was in a platform of a trian station, where a Seik man was open to hearing about God.
There are definitely more stories than this.
Part 2
To quote the most quoted John Piper quote:
“God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him.”
Abiding and Delighting in the most Creative Being is the highest I can do. He has created me to glorify Him… one way is by finding Joy in journeying in what I thrive in. (And it’s not only a one task oriented thing.)
Colossians 3:23
Striving is grasping for something outside of myself, because what He has given me, in my mind, isn’t good enough, because I am seeking approval, or I don’t have my eyes set on Who he Is. Rather than living from a place of already approved, daughtership, deeply loved, and paid in full.
Faith, in His finished work, is what I need to please Him, not what I can do alone.
He created Joy, he Is Joy. So when I don’t have Joy, something is broken, I’m possibly not abiding. And I am striving for something outside of Him.
He is also the Funniest guy around.
He created the “fishers of men” pun.
Wow, I’m really good at digressing from my origional point.
One thing I have noticed coming true. This word that this gal named Molly told me in 2019, “God was going to use Singing in my life in some way.”
Praise HIM!!!!!
Please pray for me that when I do worship in front of others that it would not be performance based or about me, but i would always have a true desiring to show His love and Beauity and all the good things He is full of.
