Such a novel concept right?
As a team, we decided we would share our testimonies with one another throughout the first couple months of this journey. We wanted to hear where each person was in their life and walk with Jesus. Our team leader began with her testimony in Australia and the boys were soon to follow. The girls waited until Indonesia where we also got to hear one of our squad leader’s tell his story.
Throughout relationships with others I have only ever told context specific parts of my story meaning if I were in conversation with someone and I could relate to what they were experiencing that part of my story would come forth. I don’t think I’ve ever been asked or had the opportunity to share from the beginning until now. It begs the question of how do you condense almost 34 years of life into a two hour session? How do you pick and choose what’s worthy to share? The point of sharing is to open up, be vulnerable, and let others into what G-d is doing in your life and how He is working to redeem those previously received life wounds.
As I have grown older, I have become more open with sharing things and generally don’t have any trouble stating the facts of my life with little emotional response. However, lately it seems like even the things I’ve overcome, received healing from and worked through are bringing tears. To some degree there’s even hesitancy to share. I know sharing with one or two people at a time is easier than a whole group of people and it took bravery to give my story in a team setting. One of the tools we learned about at Training Camp was talking about a healing process spiral and it explains why it seems harder to revisit those places. You see healing has already occurred in those places but now that I have grown stronger in my walk with Christ it’s time to dig deeper to receive healing in new ways and finally get rid of the stinking rotting roots!
My hope is for this time with my team to help foster a deeper place of healing as we walk together. It takes going all in with one another though and being open to things you might feel inclined to say no to doing. You see this team, each one of them, is G-d’s best for me during this season as am I G-d’s best for them which means embracing each one of them fully into my life even if it takes a bit of bravery to do it in owning where I am at in my beautiful mess of a journey.
