For the past couple of years, there had been many things in my life that I had said i was going to or that I wanted to do and didn’t. I never grasped on to anything in life because nothing truly made me feel “I want to do that“. I was into more having fun without the stress of competition. The older I became, the harder it was to make friends in school. I wasn’t a party kid or the artsy kid, I never had a niche or a crowd to fit in because I never tried to fit in. I was the outcast. I began to realize that its not that people don’t like me. its because I never tried to engage in anything around me. I would always seclude myself because all I ever new was being alone. Who I am now is a completely different person than just two years ago. Im not afraid to stand alone because I know there are people behind me. And that I am never truly alone with God in my heart. I still have trouble finding things to grasp to and do. Then I found this. And the moment I began reading about everything that goes on, my heart began to beat and I began to think ” This is what I want to do” and I felt God calm me down and tell me, this is what I need to do. He told me I need to change things up and do something crazy. So I applied, put down a deposit and got my passport ready. My thought ever since I started filling out my application? “No matter what happens, I am Going on this trip.”
