I’m headed home from training camp. I just want to write because I can’t believe the day is actually here! I thought I would be much more emotional considering how emotional I’ve been the past week and a half. I really want to feel that relief in my mother’s embrace, but the reality is that the Lord calmed my heart without her. I know I can be without her now. I don’t want to, but I can do it! Even though I am indescribably grateful for the Lord’s omniscience and how He knows exactly what I need all the time, I still want to be able to let out my feelings when I see my family. “I’ll walk right along side you,” the Holy Spirit comforted. I continued to ask the Lord to allow me to be real and open in the very moment of my arrival. I can’t tell you how grateful I am to have the peace and new heart for adventure with Him. I was telling my mom yesterday how I just want to be with MY people and walking with/doing life with someone from MY home, at home. But in reality, Jesus is the closest person I could get to be with me from home ever, and be my best friend the whole time, even if that means its mostly just us the whole way. I’m so excited to go explore with Him and get to take someone from home the whole time. I also get to stay in contact with EVERYONE! I know it will be hard, but its the next journey the Lord has called me into, so here goes. But… today is today, I’m about to land in San Antonio and I’m going to live up today and let tomorrow worry about itself.
