Well, in all honesty, I’ve erased the intro to this first blog post about five times now, so consequently, I’m going to start like this. I think a lot of my hesitation in writing my first post stemmed from doubt. Doubt of how to start, what to say, possibly if my post would be “correct” or not.
Quick rabbit trail, a week ago, I got back from work crew, where I went to a Young Life Family Camp in Colorado and served 50 sets of new families every week, for four weeks. Over that time, the Lord taught me, grew me, and healed me more than I ever could have imagined or could express in words. One thing I can say though, He taught me even more deeply what His peace looks and feels like. A peace that surpasses any doubt that I may face.
Anyway, back to what I was saying, the Lord answered my doubt, He answered it with words, He answered it with peace. I am not in any way a writer, and being from Texas, y’all ;), my grammar can be quite messy. But my goal from now on as I walk in these next steps the Lord has set for me, is to just pour my heart out to you guys and share with you where I am, what the Lord is showing me, how I see Him working, the many many amazing experiences to come, and what ever other jumbled mess comes along with that.
I’ll start with a little peek as to why I have chosen to embark on this life altering adventure. Ever since I was little, I have been a deep, real, and straight to the point type of person. I desire deep, passionate, and life giving relationships and didn’t always find that in the kids and friends around me. When I was 4 yrs old, my passion for horses began. The way in which God created horses, filled my every desire. I truly believe, still to this day, that God not only dwelled in horses for me, but truly loved and protected me through them as well. As high school began, many hard things began to flood my world. Horses now became a place to escape and I was dead set on going as far as I possibly could with horses, including taking a gap year to try and get to junior olympics.
Throughout high school, horses and my grandparents were my rock. I will be forever grateful for the way the Lord has used horses in my life, but at the end of my junior year I was hit with a shocking word from the Lord, it was time to take a step away from horses. The Lord was preparing me for something far greater than I could have ever known at that point. As the Lord called me away from horses and towards Him and towards people, I decided to proceed with my gap year idea. Long story short, the Lord put World Race in my path and I’m running with it. I could be consumed with doubt and still do struggle sometimes with trusting that this REALLY is the next step He is asking me to join Him in, but every time I am faced with doubt, His peace overwhelms me, and encourages me to keep going. Many times that peace and reminder is seen through others. I have to tell you guys that about 5 or 6 times now someone in my life has told me they read a verse that the Lord put on their heart for me. The verse is Matthew 28:19-20,
