Today marks one month since this crazy adventure became official. This month has been a whirlwind of amazing blessings and growth. God has been so faithful and I have been constantly reminded that this is the path I am supposed to be taking. With that being said, it hasn’t been all rainbows and butterflies. I’ve struggled with understanding why me? Why did I feel this shove to go? What makes me different than everyone else?
In the midst of all this wondering, I came across the book You are Free by Rebekah Lyons. I picked it up at Barnes & Noble just because it had a pretty cover, completely unaware that it would have such a substantial impact and profound resonance. I was passively enjoying the book until I got to the chapter entitled “Free to be called”, then I was completely enthralled. While reading this chapter of the book I couldn’t help but cry because of how close to home it was hitting me. This chapter was about realizing the talents God has blessed us with and turning those talents into resources to mend the things that break our hearts. I felt as if this chapter was written solely for me to read at that exact moment. I realized that the heavy burdens on my heart are God actively furthering my call to serve.
I started focusing on the things I know to be true and the things that break me to the core. I know I have the passion for women and children. I know that I geek out over arts and crafts or anything girly. I know that my heart longs to bring love and healing to those who are broken. What I didn’t know, is that those talents could collide so radically with the things that break me to create something beautiful. To create something that could only happen through the true hand of God.
God doesn’t call us because we are perfect, but instead uses our weaknesses and talents to create a path and calling for our lives. I am free to understand that this is my calling. This is my place to be obedient and follow the road that has already been paved for me. I can stress myself out real quick when I look at the huge number I need to fundraise, or the fact I have to pack 9 months of my life into a single backpack, or remembering that the world is a dangerous place. But these worldly stresses are nothing in the hands of God. When I give those burdens to Him, there is peace. He called me to this, and I am going. I am free to be called.
“The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world’s deep hunger meet” Frederick Buechner
