August 25, 2018
One of my favorite days of the race thus far.
Today was amazing.
Oh where or where to begin.
Jesus, I love you, thank you for moving today and radiating in the darkness (even though that is just who you are, thanks for a visible glimpse of this today).
Went to a temple today. Was pretty cool. It was an ancient one. With ruins and all, got some epic photos and played and played and felt so free. But beyond that God moved in an even more epic and glorious way.
But before I explain more let me give a little background info…
Back tracking… we entered Cambodia on August 8th and when we did God laid certain things on my heart for the month. One of them being blind eyes.
For our ministry this month, we also get to interact and be friends with university students that we live with in a dorm. And every night we get the privilege of leading devotions with them. When it was my turn to lead God laid it on my heart to share and challenge them to ask God for bigger things. And I shared some of the healings I had seen God do over the years. I also shared how currently God had laid blind eyes on my heart (specifically right eye) so that was something I was praying over this month.
Fast forward 2 weeks. We are heading to this temple (a 1.5 hour drive) and I feel like I am supposed be in worship. And as I am worshiping God reminded me of the blind eyes… and I prayed that He would put that person in our path at the temple.
We arrive and are hiking the steps to the temple and at a flat part we stop to catch our breath. I am distracted and not at all thinking about what happened on the van ride there. And I hear my team mate, Megan, calling to me how this lady was blind. Megan had remembered from weeks before when I shared about the blind eyes and said “didn’t God lay blind eyes on your heart?” I was taken off guard and hesitated and then realized, Whoa God I see you!
So I went over to talk with her, she was a regular to the temple and would come there to beg as people passed. My Cambodian friend started to translate for me and come to find she is blind in the left eye and foggy in the right eye. I told her about Jesus and how He had laid it on my heart to pray over a blind person and how I believed He wanted to heal her. In conversation she informed us that it wasn’t possible for her to be healed. A Christian man had passed through her life years before and had told her that it was not possible for her to be healed. I was heart broken at this and secretly mad but realized God is capable of moving regardless. My friends and I prayed healing over her and then asked if anything changed, and nothing had so I asked if we could pray again, she agreed. This time I heard God prompting us to pray 2 more times after that. So after she expressed no change for the second time I asked if we could pray again, she agreed. After no change the third time I was feeling discouraged and didn’t want to overstep in any way (just being real, that’s how I felt). So as I was having an internal battle of how to ask to pray over her a fourth time, our pastor (host) suggested we pray over her one last time before we leave. So we did and as we prayed we all discussed later how we felt a shift, and this time she was super joyful and said though there wasn’t a change in her eye sight, she felt something from her head to her toes (like a tingling sensation). And she become super joyful and gave us all hugs and kisses and grabbed my hand and just smiled.
Even though she was not healed in that moment I know that God moved in her life. And I know that God laid her on my heart from the time I entered this country for a reason. And it blows my mind how He is faithful to use anything. In this instance God used her imperfections to highlight her to us. And against my interpretation and expectation of her getting healed in that moment, maybe it was more about her feeling loved and seen. I know that she will see again, and maybe she gets healed tomorrow morning, but I also know that God’s ways are so much higher than mine. And He did what He wanted in that moment. And I will continue to pray over her.
Our God is so good, and when I say this I mean OUR GOD is GOOD always and forever. Always has been and always will be.
Live loved,
Micaela
