I heard a podcast the other day that rocked my little world. Todd White said, “God is called the comforter because we are called to be uncomfortable.” I rewinded it a few times and listen to it again and again to make sure I was letting this hit my heart and not just my mind. The renewing of our mind starts with our heart, after all.
I started thinking of the times I was called out of my comfort zones and how I was stretched to new lengths, how I hated the process as it was happening but loved to look back at those moments and rejoice over them. Being in YWAM, not called to but to actually be a part of YWAM was the longest uncomfortable zone I had ever been in. I hated it in the moment but now I can’t seem to keep my mouth shut about how much I loved being there. Once I found my comfort in YWAM and I was ready to make steps to be staff, the God of the universe called me to this crazy thing called The World Race. I knew I would be uncomfortable there because it wasn’t YWAM, it wasn’t the friends I made and I didn’t have that mentor to help guide my way back to Jesus. I knew when I signed up for the Race I was signing up for a year of uncomfortable stretching. But right now I feel like a girl with too tight of yoga pants on trying to do a difficult pose when all I want to do is the Childs Pose, which is curling up into a ball on the floor. I want to give up because this month has been hard for me. I love where I’m doing ministry, I love the relationships we’ve built here, but I am not enjoying my time with the Lord in my secret place. Lately it has been a lot of me not understanding and being too hard-headed and hard-hearted to surrender those things. But I can’t grow when I’m in the safety zone of comforts and I know being comfortable would break my heart even more than the battle I’m going through right now. I know if I’m not growing closer to the Lord He’s not able to move the way He wants to in and through my life, which not only effects me but the people around me, the people God wants to start a relationship with. I am tired and I am frustrated but I am not alone. God is the comforter of my heart and all of the outside elements to that. I don’t know why I’m being stretched in this way just yet, but I know it’s for a reason. This story doesn’t exactly have a happy ending yet or an ending with a personal revelation, but it’s just what my life is looking like as of right now.
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Also praise report! I reached my 3rd financial goal of $13,000! So thank you so much for everyone who donated and prayed with me! My next deadline to be fully funded to complete the race is Jan 31st! If you would like to donate you can find a donate button on the top of the page! I hope you have a wonderful weekend! God bless!
