Leaving my home, my family, my normal, my comfort and box of what I wanted in my life I sit on the step looking out and thinking I should be struggling, I should be needing to pray for God to help me be okay. I am not struggling, I am not needing to pray for strength to make my days Okay, I am Okay from the time I wake up to the moment I go to bed. I am more than Okay I am happier than I have ever been. It’s hard being away from my family, it’s hard being away from the people who love me with all their hearts, but here living life according to the Lord‘s will I am happier. I am okay because God‘s will is the key to being okay. I am okay because this life i am living is leading me to what I have been praying for, for years. I am okay and it is okay to be okay because the race is not about struggling, it’s about being on the path that the Lord has paved for you. I am okay because I am in a relationship with the Lord instead someone who is not following Christ. I am okay because even though I am missing special moments in my family’s lives and friends lives, they keep me apart of every moment of their lives so I do not miss out in seeing their joy. I am okay because eceryday I feel the love and joy of the Lord. I am okay because every moment of the day the Lord shows me I am exactly where He wants me. I am okay because He answers every pray big and small. I am okay and It is okay to be okay. I am beyond happy and the race brings me that happiness every morning I wake up and every night when I go to bed. I did not come on the race to get away from my life at home, I sacrificed my life at home to answer the Lord’s call, but in answering the Lord’s call I have learned that what made me happy and what I thought I wanted in my life, God is showing me that He is paving a path to so much more and so much more happiness than I ever thought I deserved. I am okay and it is okay to be okay on the race. I have my struggles through out my days such as wishing I could somehow click my heels and be home for a split second. Just as quickly as I wish I could transport home I switch to never wanting to leave the field and never wanting to leave where God wants me most. I am okay most of all because the race gave me people in my life that will be staying In my life and all the laughs and joy that comes with it. I am okay most of all because God is great all the time and all the time God is good. I am okay no I am more than okay I am great and it is okay.
