It has been over a week since arriving here and it honestly feels like I’ve been here for months. Getting back into the groove of ministry and team times and being intentional with people has my schedule jam packed; on top of the fact that the Lord has brought up a ton of things he wants me to walk through. Hard things.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t have time to just catch my breathe and it has nothing to do with the fact that I am 10,000 ft above sea level and the altitude is killer. Balancing alone time with the Lord, being aware of my emotions, being aware of everything really, and leading these racers well has me feeling like I’m running constantly.
But as I take a step back and look at it all, I see that the Lord is within it all. That because he has walked me through hard things before, he is going to do it again. That even when I don’t know what to say to these racers in their time of need he knows exactly what they need and the best way I can fight for them is through prayer and intercession. That even though our ministry is heavy construction and manual labor he is there waiting to teach us something.
And I cannot rob the Lord of the glory that he deserves. I cannot take away the fact that even though he is walking me through some heavy things, it isn’t the end of the world and he is with me constantly. He continually speaks truth and life into my soul and interweaves peace into the places where all I know is anxiety. Sometimes I forget how much I can clearly hear the Lord. Looking back at myself a year ago I was still trying to decipher what was my own voice, the world’s voice, the enemy’s voice, and the small, still voice of my God. I definitely still struggle at times, but when I do my part and still myself before him, he just pours himself into me.
“Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been P O U R E D into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”
-Romans 5:3-5
He literally pours his love into us through the spirit inside us and man do I have a hard time wrapping my mind around that.
So yeah God is walking me through some painful things BUT I can rejoice because I know that at the end of it all it will bear good fruit. Ministry can be super exhausting at times BUT I still have the choice to have a positive attitude or not. I am super busy BUT I can make time to be still and silence myself before the Lord and let him breathe life into my lungs. And he desires to do that. Wow. What a God we have.
Life here is honestly so so good. I love my team, I love my squad, I love my fellow leaders, and am so stoked to watch these people become more of who the Lord has called them to be.
Until next time.
-Kyla Cal
