I thought in October my new adventure would begin. I just graduated from college, so I was super pumped to have some down time for myself to really focus on the plan God has for me. What a joke. While I am asking the hard questions about my faith, I found that I struggle in absolute faith.
During the next few months, I will be fundraising over $17,000. Holy macaroons, that is a large number. I could vomit (I did). I’m not going to lie; this looming sum has left me crippled with anxiety. I would wake up in the morning ready to write a support letter and find that my fingers are hesitant to type. How am I supposed to ask people for money when I don’t have any myself?
People around me have said that the Lord will provide.
Thanks? Are you sure? I checked my funds bar on my blog, and it hasn’t moved.
For someone who does not like to share burdens (especially financial) believing that the Lord will provide can be challenging. There is a lingering doubt that He won’t go through on His promises. I keep thinking that I must be in control of the funds and that if they appear, it is due to my hard work. However, the World Race a ministry for God, not me. Shouldn’t the fundraising process be about Him as well?
I’m tackling the doubt, the fear, and the anxiety piece by piece. The more I pray to God, the more I relinquish my control. I am working on having absolute faith in God. Without God, I know I will not be able to raise any of these funds. The people around me aren’t wrong. God will provide through the people around me.
Fundraising isn’t something I can push off to the last minute. Nor can it be done without those around me. I’m asking everyone in my life to take a minute to consider their monthly expenses. How much money do you spend on coffee? How much on name brand items? How much is spent on things you later realize was unimportant? Trust me, 90% of my pay checks are spent on food and coffee (and I get coffee for free at my job), so I understand the impulse. Think about saving $5 every week for the next few months and donating it to God’s kingdom. That $5 could be that venti java chip frappuccino from Starbucks, or the money you save from buying the off-brand items. If you can sacrifice with me, $17,000 will be raised easily.
Pray with me over Matthew 6: 25-34. These verses have helped me over the past few weeks, and I hope they bring wisdom to your lives!
